epiphany

I CAN FLY!

2010-09-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

;)

trippin' oh stumblin' flippin' fumblin'

2010-08-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

this is not really an update,
its just what you call a bad date.
oh! no more about just being late,
its like they've found a new 'mandate'.

i don't see how i belong,
in the place where i've been long.
feels like i should walk along,
to a place that sings my song.

i don't norm'ly write like this,
cause i felt the point was missed.
why do people judge like this,
can't they all just give me peace?

vested int'rest, vested int'rest,
resounding in my mind at rest.
how and when this endless protest,
would ever not be brought to test?

so with a heavy non-the-less,
i rest my case with forgiveness;
and trade my rights for godliness,
lest i would showcase Christless-ness.

lest i increase and He decrease,
and lest He strikes and i decease. (LOL!)
oh! God of peace, my striving cease!
thank You for putting me at ease!

p/s:
what use on earth with hair to hold,
when death returns a pile of mould.
with lengthy, shining locks of gold,
let MY new trend in heav'n unfold!

rhythm of Your grace

2010-08-10T11:06:00.000-07:00

hi. its been a loooong time. i know this blog is really deprived of my attention, but i just can't find the time to update. or even if i did, there's nothing substantial to update about. events, random statements are all dominated by facebook d. and at the end of the say there is really nothing much to squeeze out here.

having said that. i'll just update for updating sake.

no doubt alot of stuff happened from the last update till now. like how i went through the hellish examination of a month called june. enjoyed productive holidays in the 1st half of july. and the increasingly crazy uni workload of august. yay! =D

hurm. this semester, i have a secret. that is, i am superman. oops no more secret d. well, i feel like i've over-committed myself to so many things. and in that sense, i can't help but think that i'm immature because of that. eventhough i made a decision to prioritize everything, which is by far so far so good. but still, there's this feeling of inevitably crashing out and screwing up and thus proving my over-commitment to be an immature bravado =/

just the other day i was writing down my various duties in church, CF, and other 'social commitments'. and the list was =O lol. if you're my fren and you're reading this, it would be really nice to pray for me =P cause i feel like i really need it lorh. but then again, i'm not saying that i'm purely running on the fuel of the prayers of others lah. that would make me a breainless free-loader.

i'm tired of surviving the semesters. i wanna conquer them instead! and emerge from it stronger in many areas =D insya-allah!

anyways. the 40 days of fasting has begun =O and i still dunno what to fast. i can't fast on food because my meal times are already so irregular. i can't fast on computer games because i don't play that often. and i dun watch much tv. comes online every now and then. facebook every now and then. they say it must hurt to count, and i can't find anything that'll hurt! (oops. invited trouble d) so yeah. fast wattttt???

aiyoh. lazy d. and hungry. and sleepy.

p/s : i always blog in the 'edit html' mode wan. naiser.

pp/s : i need to stop saying stupid things. to you. especially =/

this is an emergency!

2010-05-30T09:58:00.000-07:00

"may we see this generation and its state of desperation for Your glory!"

p/s: i want to do more, but i know too little to do more =(

The most beautiful truth ever existed

2010-05-23T06:46:00.000-07:00

is that truth was never made up, but something absolute. something that existed before everything else existed.

and really, only Truth can make things come into existence.

And when we realize what Truth says we are, then we ARE. And isn't that the beauty of it?

I really find it so.

As i begin to comprehend the truism that goes like ''people who don't accept you as who you really are, are not your true friends in the first place.''

Being human and all, i find it hard to be vulnerable because i'm afraid to see the circle of friends diminish. But i guess this truism filters the people whom you can count on in your entire lifetime from people whom you thought you could also count on.

I thank Truth for saying i'm worth getting rejected for. worth getting a bad reputation for. worth dying for.

Looking at myself, it doesn't make sense. No one would do such a thing for me. But the truth is there was. And i know this is so often repeated, but i guess i've never found this truth truer than before.

truth is, truth is my only true friend. because at the end of the day, if ever my circle of friends becomes a round dot. I still have enough friend to keep me going. yes its as singular as much as it makes sense.

Just thought i'd pen my thoughts down.

p/s: i also want to thank God for this friend who willingly followed me (by foot!) to check out some routes in the wee hours. It meant so much to me because honestly, i didn't expect that from him or anyone else for that matter.

we'll dance around it all night.

2010-05-21T12:57:00.000-07:00

shucks. i missed the april update. maintaining this blog is hard =/ but nevertheless, i can see the days ahead where i'll blog more often. i know it will come. i just know it.

anyways. tmr, or rather in umm.. 4 hours time, i'll be running 5km =D yes RunNat is back this year. so yes, here i am, exhausted yet excited, sleepy yet energized. just waiting for it to come. i guess its no unfamiliar fact that time flies, its as though just yesterday team -.- had their 1st ever training. and now, we're finally gonna run! no more boring red tracks and seeing man-in-tights! but real roads =D

having said that, i still wonder whether praying in such a way really works. But i guess that its more of the message we runners sent out to the world (and our hearts to God) when we do run and pray. And my guess (again) is that He no doubt will find anything sincere a delight =D

Okayy. here's what i really want to say to team -.- (i can't put a punctuation mark after that emoticon or it'll look like -.-.). LOL. anyways, i just want to say that i'm really really REALLY proud of you guy and girls! and for the amount of effort and volume of sweat you all put in for this run! =P although we fluctuate in our stamina at different times, i'm just glad that in small ways i can see yall improving =) and i really admire the endurance yall exhibit, it actually inspires me in ways you all don't know. so yeah, thank you for making the training a success, and more importantly, for your companionship in this run. i treasure every second of it.

*sentimental mode off* so yes. back to normal boring updates about myself. *narcissitic mode on* I am in my final assignment phase now, and i cannot tell whether its a good or bad thing. yet. and umm.. my first paper is on a SATURDAY. but whats better is this: i thought i could play some futsal in the morning before having myself tortured psychologically by my first paper (which happens to be psyschology). BUT MONASH HAS TO FIX THE EXAM AT THE EXACT SAME TIME WITH FUTSAL!!! yes yes its 8.30 - 10.30, not much choice eh?

so yes. other than a psycho psycho paper at a psycho day and psycho time, i've ELEVEN days of 'study break' before my next paper. true story.

gahh. anyways, amidst the exams and assignment ramblings, i want to *sentimental mode on* THANK GOD for great things that happened this semester! i shall name a few that is on my mind. for MCF! yes, i find it such a blessing to meet new people! also, being a part of MCF really makes me happy =) thank God also for new friendships made/bettered/restored too! =) you can tell i'm really happy by the amount of smilies i use =) =) =) =)

heh. smt random here. as a student (that drives) hor, it came to my attention that driving to Monash from Bkt Rimau and back actually eats ALOT of petrol =( sigh now i'm contemplating whether to shift to the hostel when its completed. and also now i'm beginning to appreciate people who pay for my petrol so so so SOOOO much. seriously! buy petrol for me for christmas kay?

okayz. i shallz endz nowz. i need at least an hourz of sleepz to keep me from faintingz and killing other peoplez later in the eveningz. nitez.

p/s: peel fresh orange NEVER fails to make my day ;)

i'd just die like that

2010-03-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

I don't know what this day will bring

Will it be disappointing, filled with longed for things?

I don't know what tomorrow holds

Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

I don't know if these clouds mean rain

If they do, will they pour down blessing or pain?

I don't know what the future holds

Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

Certain as the rivers reach the sea

Certain as the sunrise in the east

I can rest in your faithfulness

Surer than a mother's tender love

Surer than the stars still shine above

I can rest in your faithfulness

I don't know how or when I'll die

Will it be a thief, or will I have a chance to say goodbye?

No, I don't know how much time is left

But in the end, I will know your faithfulness

When darkness overwhelms my soul

When thoughts and storms of doubt

Still I trust You are always faithful, always faithful

i think i've come to the point where i'm really tired of fighting. tired using the strength of mine that could never win in the first place. tired of living the endless struggle between who i am now and who He wants me to be. tired of trying. tired of pushing.

today, i hang my gloves up.

in the end it all boils down to how big a piece of trust we're willing to let go, to grow vulnerable, to show weakness, to say 'i cannot do it alone', to allow myself to be broken. and God knows how much i hate doing just this.

but today, i hang up my gloves.

and today, i want to be able to sing this song without lying. God please help me.

p/s: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rP562si-d1Q

oh time don't stop just yet, cuz i'm not ready for now.

2010-02-22T15:42:00.000-08:00

and for the sake of having february on my archive..

in the month of february, i discovered that:

love, is not loving yourself, so that you can love the other person.

'what a stupid thought' i thought at first. but it was just then i realized that this quality was personified in Christ as he hung in my place.

not stupid anymore.

anyways, the end of february marks an end to my long 'summer' hols, not like spring is coming anyway, cuz its summer everyday in msia. anyweis, just as how i can't wait to start monash-ing again, i secretly want hols to be longer also lol. so thats why i'm taking psycho this sem to evaluate my mental condition.

also, the month of feb has been hmm.. more $$ful than usual i guess, which is a good thing. urmm.. other than that. nothing else seems much happening in my life for now =( apart from the fact that my hair is now gold =D yellow/blonde/whatever you wanna call it. okay so what made me do it? well. i just wanted to be another source of warmth for the people around me, second from the sun.

lalala and then here comes march! i'm dunno what is posting me here.. as i mentioned, its just so that i have a february post lol.

bye. until i feel like blogging properly, i'm sustaining it like that. yaaaay.

p/s: i just don't understand girls their way of choosing handbags. and prolly never will.

i'm a little lamb who's lost in the woods

2010-01-04T09:47:00.000-08:00

its been really long. blogging is starting to be not my kinda thing. i feel weird blogging now. its like unlatching the door to welcome (not to mention announce the vulnerability of the fort i call 'my life') wrong impressions, ~~stalkers~~, misunderstandings and what not.

so yeah. i'm against stuff like that bcuz i hate being vulnerable. oh oops. anyways, i dunno what to update my blog with larh.

and umm. i feel like stamping this as an entry d. gahh. okay january. nothing much happening for me. except that i'm working in caremart. for the whole month. pls have lunch with me. or i'll get lonely and talk to skittles wan.

mm so yeah. yay january. oh and someone is gonna turn 21 (i almost type 26 choy!) this coming jan 26! i wonder who =0 but anyways. maybe this is gonna be abit of a turn down, but i don't want to celebrate my 21st birthday on the 26th. (i dunwanna sound so perasan) but, as much as i would love YOU GUYS to celebrate with me, i'm just not free on jan 26th lah. the whole day. and night. but YOU GUYS can always do it another day. before/after/whatever.

january's gonna be where my room looks more people friendly too. as of now, ONLY mua can enter it. no one else . obviously for their safety, and for a good impression's sake. but more emphasis on the former ;) sigh its gonna take forever cleaning. but i must have it done =/ must! God help me. ~~nat also~~ xD

i used to have this thought where upon turning 21, one would already have a gf by his side to celebrate with, one would already have his whole life sorted out nicely like cards all laid out neatly infront of him, ~~and one would have his room clean and neat~~ one would be i dunno.. more MANLY looking already? all of which i obviously don't have. oh well. its a 'used to be' thought anyway.

i'm happy just the way God wants me to be happy about it (its all part of His plan yo). so yeah.. but now i have this new feeling (being 20 and all.. ), i've this urge to find a mate -.- yes. i dunno why, but its there. and suddenly i have a newfound respect for those who are 20 OVER, going strong and still w/o mates =P i resTECPA you all. seriously. maybe i'll follow you guys' example. omgosh what am i saying. CHOY! heh. urges. and what they can destroy.

but yeah. i guess feelings/emotions/urges do not dictate intelligence. (lol i sound so smart wannabe) so its the wait race i'm gonna be running in again this year. ~~until smt h..~~ sigh. urges.

anyways. i wont be turning 21 alone this year. you see, that is t3h problem. bcuz i dunno what to buy 21 year olds for their bday present without blowing my wallet out of shape. (i realized i only think abt this when i'm 21. or near there.) i ppl exTECPA =P expensive more ada classy punya gift for their 21st. i think. and then they go saying you only turn 21 once marh, expensive abit wun die wan marh. well don't you turn 22 once also? bodoh. but i is different (self praise here, dun spoil my moment), i'll take what you give me with open hearts and hand. lol. unless you give me smt that looks like faeces, i'll see to it that you won't have it on your smile when you leave. =)

i'm really an angel wan.. =) only when no one is looking.

so yeah. posts for january done. november and december is just these lah: fun.work.camp.3NATsinoneday!masquearade.dinners.happyxmas.ncgg.facebook.dota.salary.didisayfun?

and summary for 09, i still have the 2 teeth i loss to celebrate new year with me. eventho they're far apart from my gums, i'll always heart them. 09 was fun lah. cuz i find fun in everything wan. wee..

there you go. and suddenly i feel too old to learn music already. boo you, earth! for making me age.. anywayz. many happy returns, year 2010. =) *toasts to whoever*

p/s : i'm starting to like you already!

i love sleeping.

2009-10-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

so it has been awhile.

1
and its 12 october today. week 12 for monash =) which is good. and not so good. good because it is heading to an eternity long of holidays (3 months plus, i think). and not so good because exams are prowling around the corner. but hey, i'm not complaining =)

2
went over to meng yoe's new home today. It was.. nice lah. i'm picking the words carefully so that i don't ban myself from entering his house again. Other than the make-do waste paper basket as a hanging lamp-shade, everything was normal lah. He tried to impress us with his new tablecloth, but we dropped food on it -.- accidentally, of course ;)

3
heh. i'm getting very lazy to update nowadays. don't know why, but i suspect its age related (getting old T.T). and talking agout age, i think 09 is passing me by faster come the 3rd quarter of the year. September went by silently, and now its close to mid october already.

4
Sometimes this rate of 'time passing by' makes me think about the future. or rather, my future. not really about what am i going to do and all that kinda stuff, but rather what kind of person i will become. Life has always been carefree for me. But i guess, carefree is inversely proportional to age. Still it doesn't mean i'm not completely carefree now, i think i will always remain that way, just that less of it lah. but for now, i think i'm still mostly carefree lah. that is why i find fun in almost everything. How was exams? fun. How was EE? fun. How was this and that? FUN! and i think that because of what i'm made of, i'm generally a happy, optimistic person.

5
anyways, i think i've found THE lifelong hymn for myself. its the kind of song you usually hear at funerals. go guess what it is lah. clue : Irish.

=)

Grace is gone

2009-09-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

was watching this over breakfast at medan abt 2 days ago. didn't know the title, but found out later on lah. didn't get to watch the whole thing, but i can tell its a good movie.

one part of the film made me realize something: that after people leave, the one thing that their loved ones would miss the most is hearing their voice.

there was this part where the father didn't know what to do with his two girls, and so he calls home while on a roadtrip. Obviously no one was at home, so the answering machine told him to leave a message. But, that automated voice that greeted him was that of his late wife. and he went like "i just called because i missed hearing your voice.."

gosh. i get emo when things that i really care about gets taken away. and i think i would be one who'll prolly lose the will to live if my partner ever leaves before me. or that man who cried like a baby at his wife's funeral. but yeah, i'll just leave thoughts as they are lah.

anyway, on a not so morbid note, its like the season of departures now. not that i'm emo about it, but rather i just realize the loss now. people that you got so used to seeing and hanging out together, are now a thousands of miles away. man, they are so irreplaceable!? despite the many friends you have around you, its just different without them. i guess thats why all my friends are such a huge part of me. =/ yes, i do feel the tug when you guys ~~leave~~ left.

but yeah, facebook makes life better. and that song 'never alone' too.

always late?

2009-09-07T05:29:00.000-07:00

i have issues with punctuality. and i need help. so far, this ad has been instrumental in suggesting help. enjoy:

i loved the third one lah xD cracks me up everytime i watch it. oh and the 2nd part of the video's about something else d (the one abt toilet paper).

had japanese buffet today. awesome stuff! think ly might blog abt it. go see her blog =P

Life in Uni : Tonight's Gonna be a Good, Good Night~

2009-09-03T04:16:00.000-07:00

tonight, officially at 10.00p.m., i ryan teoh, hereby declare the "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!" ON!!

featuring cool activities like:

reading EVERYTHING (till you drop) about marine life and how heavy metal affects them! ahh. HEAVENLY! just like the picture!

no not this kinda heavy metal..
..but metals like MERCURY! CADMIUM! ARSENIC! and all those LOVABLE! metalloids you can find in a WHAT??

PERIODIC TABLE!! andandandand if that doesn't make you feel hyper enoughh! ARGHH!

you can go read up ALL the cool E-JOURNALS (echoes)!!

and after you're done deciphering and reading those HOT STUFFS, you can begin..

EXACTLY!! and if you can't reach ONETHOUSANDTHREEHUNDRED words which i highly doubt, you can repeat the

READING!! ARGH! and then you,

READ AGAIN!! until you

NOOOO!! you can't COMMIT SUCH A SIN (echoes)!!

especially not on "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!!" so reCHARGE your energy with

no, coffees are for AMATEURSS.. what!? A-M-A-T-E-U-R-S! but reCHARGE yourself with

YESS!! mmmmm..

ARGH! handsome xD

in a seperate case (and more sober tone):

i promise myself NEVER to have anymore last minute "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!!" because she will call me mad after she reads this and i'll freaking diee the following die. <----omg. see? i can't spel day correctly o.0 and i promise myself to read up for crazy assignments like this, and not leave it for a stressed filled frenzy hellofatime doing it the day before submission. NEVER. DO. IT. AGAIN. unless of course, Monash forces me to do so (which they don't because they care for you wan) HAH! ~~depending on how much you pay i guess.~~

and you must be thinking where or how did i get the books from. got it from Monash's Library. picture this. guy walks in empty handed. walks out with FIVE freaking HEAVY books. NERD GILER SIAL. bleh.

so why waste time to blog? jee i dunno. because i just wanted to destress before going clubbing with my assignments (all night longg). =D

Gawwsh =/ i promise not to repeat this anymore. suffering. tiring. and i need and want my sleeeep. =( sigh. time to get started.

p/s: i've gotta feeling (woohoooo!) that tonight's gonna be a good night!! ohh goodnight lah.

pp/s : drew if you're reading this. apply powerthirst enthusiasm to it. =D

whats not to love about you?

2009-08-08T05:28:00.000-07:00

today God tested my ice-cream hypothesis. its not that i had a really bad day or any of that sort, its just that i'm having a sick day.

sick meaning i have sore throat (and stuff that makes me think i've aH1N1). so yeahh, maybe its a bad day lah, but the point is.. even if it is a bad day, i can't have ice-cream cuz it'll make my day sicker. so woohoo God, point taken.

i noticed today (saturday) was quite unusual for me. because i never had a free-er saturday than today. reason being i am sick lah. and because of that, i had to miss alot of things.

morning
missed morning prayer
miss football

afternoon
thankfully i made it alive to 365 and worship practice earlier.

evening + night
missed andrew's farewell
missed going to free tenji's japanese buffet (cousin's farewell)
missed avinesh's farewell

sigh. being sick isn't cool sometimes. altho now i've acquired a temporary sexy voice, i still would give that back for japanese food T.T and yeah, to those ppl whose farewell i missed, i'm really sorry for not being able to make it! =(

and so i'm here blogging when yall are having a great time! sad child.. and yeah. thats my saturday so far. i shall go for dinner now alone and wallow in self pity and die. lol.

well despite all this, altho my day might be sickly, i still think i had an awesome day! and the only reason for it is because..

..'this is the day that the Lord has made, we (i) WILL rejoice and be glad in it.'

-Psalms 118:24

p/s : its more effective than my ice-cream theory.

the 12 tribes

2009-08-03T05:56:00.000-07:00

ignore the title of the youtube video. it has nothing to do with its content.

was just looking up david pawson in google, and found this video. yes the title made me curious, and so i watched it. turns out to be nothing as what the title suggested. give it a good listen! really really good stuff.

he talks like a physicist! i really thought he was one.good stuff right? check out 3:23 for the anisotropic jewels. i'm sorry if the science part is a blur, he's just trying to say that in pure light condition, only the 12 jewels becomes extra colourful! whereas the others like diamonds and all don't. =)

Revelations 21 : 19-20
And the foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with all kinds of precious stones: the first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald, the fifth sardonyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst.

so i guess thats where the name jacintha comes from.

anyways, i just can't imagine anyone writing off what he just said as coincidence. isn't it too much for one?

what is your one thing.

2009-07-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

recently i've been struggling to keep my head afloat amidst the waves of life. and i think i've been thinking and focusing on everything that i shouldn't. i feel as though i'm being chained to negativity, because i can only go so far with that limited optimism. but yeah, life goes on for me.

happened to read 'the freedom in Christ' today. and i guess in a way, its a reminder of what i'm (we're) called to do anyway:

People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centred.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness makes you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest people with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest people with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favour underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for the underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help, but may attack you if you help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you've got and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

anyways, here's something i picked up from pastor HS. whenever i'm faced with a day where everything just has to go wrong (in other words a bad day), i will go out and buy myself ice-cream. yes, ice-cream makes me happy, and it will serve as a reminder for me that still there is (at least) one good thing in every bad day; and of course that God is good!

so right now, i'm extending an invitation to anybody or everybody that feels bit down lately, to join me for ice-cream session this coming 30th July at Baskin Robbins or wherever lah. i can provide transport as i'm classless on thursdays. and even if no one wants to go, i would still go and treat my self alone. =)

on a side note,
last weekend was kind of.. intriguing. a question was raised "what is your one thing in life, that God has called you to do?"

i would really like to know.

john 16:33

2009-07-13T03:14:00.000-07:00

Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I'll stand.

In love never to end,
To call You more than Lord,
Glorious friend.

So I throw my life upon all that You are,
Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance, with You,
Where the love lasts forever.

And forever I will sing,
Lord forever I will sing,
Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.

"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

he'd do anything to see you smile

2009-07-11T11:24:00.000-07:00

Unforgettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that's how you'll stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

this song never fails to make a bad day, better. =)

hope

2009-07-06T12:38:00.000-07:00

You crown the year with Your goodness,
and Your paths drip with abundance.

life/the world disappoints; but the Word reappoints.

number 44

2009-06-19T11:15:00.000-07:00

God only can help us as much as we allow Him to...

i ♥ thai ads

2009-06-16T09:52:00.000-07:00

weird things is at its peak of occurence nowadays. if not for you then at least to me. especially in MY toilet.

today, i went in to do some toilet stuff, and then there was another baby roach running around. i think its the other one's sibling.. but oh well, it enjoyed the same of its other sibling if that were true. =) just that i made it quicker this time, using the same technique of course.

and then, i went to the same toilet a few hours later. switched on the light. look around. and while i did some small business *PIAK* a lizard fell..

no no it did not fell on my.. or anywhere on me (pls try not to be too imaginative). it piak-ed somewhere near me. i was staring at it and this lol thought came to my mind..

"hey go pee on it!"

hahaha i asked the lizard whether it wanted me to pee on it. talking bout weird. think its eating into me. anyways i didn't lah, what a sick thing to do. i just left it to find its own exit. and hope it doesn't crawl up to my butt the next time i close business deals.

why does it only happen in my toilet. heh. i pray that this blessing would go to others as well. esp this one person that also lives in kk. =)

speaking about lizards. here's something i found in youtube earlier today, and the conclusion i drew from it (and a few other videos) is (are): thai people are creative. i like. enjoy:

before that (oops too late haha), if you're scared of lizards, this would prolly make things worse, or (if you're an optimist) cure your fear.

have a nice day. just remember never to look up with your mouth open. i've some other stories to tell, but i think today's share of weirdness. is. enough. having said that,

nuff said.

another thai ad coming soon! (seriously hilarious!)
=)

i ♥ insect torture

2009-06-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

no its not my latest obsession. i think the sadistic attribute is in-built. i'll give you some cerita silam later. lemme tell you what i just did.

i was doing big business in the toilet when i saw this baby roach running around at the corner. so to cure boredom, i took the.. what do you call this:

think its called a sprayer. anyway. it wasn't any ordinary sprayer, the water comes out really powerful-ly wan. as in if i tried to wash my butt with the water coming out at that speed, i'll probably make it bleed. =/ okay umm. so i used it and sprayed the roach lah. but there's a technique to do it.

i sprayed with very short intervals, didn't just tekan habis-habisan. but tekan. stop for half a sec. then tekan again. kept doing it for sometime. and so that roach was being tossed everywhere. then i decided to spray it in a way to see how high it could actually go up the wall lol.

anyways to cut the long story short. i poured listerine on it to see whether it'll die. apparently not. so i poured some goo-ish shower gel on it and left it. i think it should be dead by now. *goes to check* yup it drowned in shower gel hahaha.

so yeah. i dunno why, but i really find some happiness in killing insects. or rather torturing them to death. =)

yup. so thats for today. i'll just give one more sadistic approach that i commonly use when i was about 12 years old. my old house where i used to live in then has a backalley plagued by cats. and so everynight i can hear them either making love or giving birth or fighting. so one evening, i went to the backyard of my house (facing that cat-plagued backalley) with a cup of water.. from the termostat. =) and there was this cat sleeping nicely by the stone steps leading to the fence. so i went and just poured that cup of just-boiled water on it. and NEVER in my life i saw a cat jumped without using its limbs!! its body became like a spring and it leaped sideward instantly and started running.. and if you think this is violent, i've more to tell. but not about me lah, this is my most sadistic one so far. other than asking my fren to roll over a cat's corpse. =)

so. i guess i should lose some cat-lover frens by now d. but anyway, i've repented of my sins. and have moved on to play with insects now. =)

to wrap this post up, i'll just tell you about my dream. was taking a nap in the evening, woke up with my heart beating really hard and i couldn't sleep after that. here's what happened. in the 1st dream, i dreamt that one of my friends.. pearly died. and suddenly her friends and i had to live the reality of it. we went to her house and there was no pearly anymore.. and the cause of death was smt to do with either darlie or colgate toothpaste (wth right?). i felt so emo even in the dream heh. anyways, i pray that all these will NEVER become a reality.

and suddenly the dream changed.. there were 4 people involved. paul, pearly, abel and myself. what happened was that we were all seated next to a roof LOL. let the logic sink in 1st. okay? okay, and its something like this lah:

the building on the right and left was about 4 storeys high. and that freak chair is supported by abt 10 long bamboos protruding from the ground. and there were 4 chairs. paul, pearly and abel were seated on them. paul was trying to be calm. pearly was tensioning like crazy cuz her chair was wobbly. and abel.. oh abel. abel was having fun. he was like enjoying every moment of it. he bend his bamboo-ed chair all the way towards the other building (green = scaffoldings) on top of the scaffoldings.

and he said: "c'mon guys, try to do this. it won't break."

seriously guys, for the life of me i have no idea what kind of stupid dream that was? i need a joseph/daniel to interpret it for me.

anyways, what happened next was this. in that dream, i was suddenly hanging on the roof at the red circle (i've like no idea what happened to my chair), holding on to dear life (or so i ~~thought~~dreamt). i did everything i could to get to safety, but to no avail. i looked down and saw that if i fell = mati absolute. so to cut the long dream short, i fell and.. died (and the cats and cat-lovers go YES!). and woke up with my hands and legs all feeling numb. i kid you not.

and so that concludes my blogging for today. dream interpreters pls step up and interpret my dream. as a reward, i'll offer you a position as prime minister over my room (so you can clean it up for me).

aren't my dreams morbid?

quote of the day : fire power?
xD

ten shekels and a shirt

2009-06-10T10:06:00.000-07:00

thought it was really inspiring. and the issues he addressed really helped me see what true christianity really is. however this video is just but a summary. the whole sermon is about 52 minutes long lol. its at youtube, search for paris reidhead - ten shekels and a shirt.

really really good stuff. listen up the whole sermon there if you've time, you won't regret it!

=)

i told you so

2009-05-29T11:46:00.000-07:00

this is 'the another night' where i find myself looking at the bed.. thinking to myself how nice sleeping is.. and how i wish i could get some of that nice juicy sleep =/

its such a temptation to have a bed in front/behind/beside you when you work lah. so the best way is to work on top of the bed =D which usually result in me dozing off anyway. =(

anyways. smt lol happened just now. was taking my shower. so, i shower shower shower lah. then there was a lizard on the ceiling right on top of me. and i found myself telling it "if you fall on me, i'm gonna kill you.."

so it went away haha. or so i thought lah. i was washing my hair when i felt i stepped on smt soft. looked down. guess what. i stepped on the freaking lizard..

few things that came to my mind when that happened. one was, if la i get married next time, and my wife happen have the same encounter, i dunno whether to laugh or to help her.. if wanna help also how to help? imagine your wife screaming at the shower and all lol. and you go in panicking just to find a lizard running for its life. or worse. your husband! xD

another thing is smt about crushing the serpent under foot and it will bruise my heel. its smwhere in the bible lah.. lol anyways, i didn't do it the biblical way. too messy. and i can't imagine smashing the lizard underfoot lah with its goo all over my leg and my bathroom tiles. you imagine for me lah.. so yeah.. gravity is growing stronger nowadays, beware tall people.

nuff said.

p/s : kay lah. the lizzie didn't die. i just kicked it aside. without breaking off any of its parts. and it escaped and live happily ever after.. eating flies and mosquitoes.

Validation

2009-05-17T01:31:00.000-07:00

its a cool video. ita just 15 minutes long, but i guess its worth it. watch it if you've time. because you are great.

hope this warms your heart. and know that you... are great, you have an amazing face, did anyone ever tell you that? and someday, people are gonna love you for what you are. =P

encouragement really do wonders.

the art of losing myself

2009-05-11T10:05:00.000-07:00

i realize alot of things. i realize the 'so much more' that i've been missing all this while, either because of ignorance or because i want to do everything fast.

so yes. i guess during these few months i've certainly learned alot. in a way its like slowing down. taking a pause to observe the world. i realize that people, are actually quite lonely on the inside. altho they may have lots of company outside (i'm sure you guys have heard this before), but really, when not around people, they're lonely on the inside. even around people you can be lonely, no? you may feel companionship, but it doesn't really satisfy.

i've known some friends, they go watch movies alone. i guess people nowadays would say things like 'sad person' or the stuff like that. i'm also guilty i guess. there was a question i had to answer recently: are you fine being alone?

initially i thought, of course i'm fine. i like being home alone. but let me rephrase the question, are you fine going to the movies alone? are you fine going to shop alone in a huge shopping mall? are you fine having a meal outside just by yourself? etc. well, i'm not. so much for thinking that i like being alone.

something i realized. in as much as there are pros in having company around you, i think there's something we can all learn in being lonely. by lonely i mean - just you, and God. because i believe with all thats going on in this world now, people are all so busy doing their own things, hanging out with frens and all, etc..

that they left God out. Hence i think that God is actually quite lonely lorh. and thats why i feel that a lonely person may find it easier to truly discover God in a way greater than those who aren't. its like, in this aspect of loneliness, the more we give our time to be spent with God (in physical loneliness), that we're actually having a more fulfilling communion than with our many frens. and i guess thats what i really desire more now.

the more i lose myself in this area, the more i want to lose.

you know what? i really don't know how to explain this, but its just something i felt throughout these months. that through the lonely times, i actually feel satisfied.

i'm not good with describing how i feel. and i guess i'm blogging this as a memo for myself.

that was quite a show

2009-04-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

i find that everytime i come to this page (editing page), i begin to think whether is it necessary to blog anymore. i'm reminded that the only reason i blogged was because of certain motivations then. and now, as those motivations are gone, i'm beginning to lose interest in blogging. or even maintaining a blog.

you have no idea how many posts i left unwritten. many were started with passion and inspiration, but halfway thru i'll just save it and leave it. they were always left unfinished because i always think they aren't reading-worthy-material. hence, i actually find no need of telling my piece of mind on blogs. cause i want them to mean something more i guess.

the reason i'm blogging right now is because this blog reminds me of the me i was, that made the me now. hence i'm talking to myself now to give a second chance to this blog instead of just do euthanasia. i think thats how you phrase that word. think. i miss my old blog lah.

so yes, i is giving my blog a second chance to hit fame haha. tell the world.

having said that, i think that blogging (to me lah) is for me to understand myself more, but for you to know that i exist lah.

lifesong

2009-03-27T09:19:00.000-07:00

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases

His mercies never come to an end

They are new every morning

New every morning.

Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord.

Great is Thy faithfulness

i think i found mine.

see it for yourself

2009-02-09T09:30:00.000-08:00

don't have to tell me i neglected my blog. it usually happens when i'm 'addicted' to something new. hence the no time to update excuse.

so yeah. no updates for now thanks to cousin xing. and making me addicted to dominion. again. xD

yay.

What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian

2009-01-13T10:39:00.000-08:00

okay. before i start, just want to announce that my update on vietnam will be coming soon. and its gonna be a looong one. and after you finish reading it, you'll be begging your parents to go vietnam ~~with me~~. ;P

alright. back to the topic. received an e-mail. had a good laugh. so share loh. nah, read:

1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.

edit: i know shebby! xD

2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.

edit: they complain in circles to reach square one. =.=

3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.

4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.

sexist edit: girls lah! most guys don't have this problem wan. =P

5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam
(b) no transport
(c) cannot find parking

6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.

7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to a American / British / Australian.

edit: so darn true!! JAPANESE ACCENT ALSO GOT WTH. better still, thru the phone!! @.@

8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.

9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.

10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.

11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.

12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.

13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?'

14. When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'

15. When an angmoh stranger kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him.

thats all. i've no intention on causing racial tension by posting this up, its all JUST for laughs, and its quite true (some of them). so yeah, hope i don't end up in ISA for stupid reasons like this. did i say stupid? okay. done.

p/s: despite all the shitty comments i hear about m'sia, i'm still proud to be a malaysian! and insya-allah (it means God-willing), i would want to make here, a better place.

=)

merry christmas and boxing day.

2008-12-25T12:05:00.000-08:00

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

our prime minister visited my church today. was a cool experience although i couldn't shake his hand. (kinda lazy to)

PM giving his speech

i'm lazy to type what i think and feel about christmas and the pm and all. basically its just like an ordinary day for me lah. apart from the pm's visitation.

(i think)the best part of this year's christmas is actually just playing ps in daniel's house, the way we play winning eleven is totally hilarious. van der sar played striker, and scored.

boxing day - 26th dec.

i didn't know what boxing day commemorates, but i just know its on the 26th of december. according to sam, he says richard says that its a day where people exchange boxers (the ones you wear). lol. and i thought it was a day to commemorate some famous boxers (people who box). so i wiki-ed it.

and wiki says boxing day is based on the tradition of giving gifts to the less fortunate members of society.

well, guess sam was partially correct. giving boxers as gift still counts i guess. lazy to tell more about the history of boxing day, go wiki it lah. just one cool fact about boxing day, technically, it cannot be on a sunday.

kay. lazy d.

Romeo save me, they're tryin' to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real!
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

p/s : i know the stanzas sounds mushy and all, but it kinda brings my mind back to those childhood days where the perception of love was so innocent, and pure. it painted quite a nice picture in my head lah haha. guess we're all kids somewhere inside us.

=)

can you feel the love tonight (tonight)

2008-12-17T10:04:00.000-08:00

was it can or can't. i can't remember.

anyways, SAM results are OUT! but, only the softcopy available xD that means i can only view my results online. which i'm restricting myself to in order to not potong the suspense.

and thats why i'm awake. and every now and then, tempted to go to that website and view my results. one thing good about that webste is everyone's resuts are discreet, so that only they can view it for themselves. thank God. if not, about a hundred people would start calling me up and go like: ''eh you got **************** lah." i even hate the thought of it.

and this friday is myHope. this friday is also the collecting results day. this friday is definitely gonna be a long day. so yeah. God have mercy.

anyways, lets not talk about results. lets talk about mamak. i think mamak workers need to do a few things. let me try to describe without using pictures.

#1 they need to shave
#2 they need to go for 'how to hear with clarity' course
#3 they need to smile, you know? like this:

(sry, i needed a pic for this xD)

imagine being approached by a waiter like this one above, crap. i don't know about you, but i don't feel like telling my orders to someone whose face says: "slap my face, you know i need one." kay lah. bit too much there. but i'll FREAK lah if someone like that approaches me to take my order.

"s'cuse me sir hehe.. may i take your order *THAT smile* hehe."

ANYWAYS, urghh. yes they need to shave. why? so that their facial hair won't find its way to my mouth. and for those who have ear hair (SAM students, its not mr munin okay. oops.) its good to shave that part so they can hear properly.

yes, and they need to attend the 'how to hear with clarity' course. this is to prevent occasions like:

scenario 1
uncle: *smooching sound* mee goreng mamak satu.
**5 minutes+ later**
waiter comes with a plate of nasi goreng mamak
uncle: ini mee goreng mamak?

scenario 2 part 1
boy: teh o' limau panas satu
**awhile later**
waiter comes with teh o' ais limau
boy: err. nvm. *drinks*

not so bad. he just didn't get the panas part. its okay,

scenario 2 part 2
boy: teh o' ais satu
**awhile**
waiter comes with teh ais.

first he forgot the panas. then, he f_rg_t the o.

but so far, the best was still this:

Scenario 3
uncles: sirap limau ais satu.
**took a long time**
waiter comes with wet kuay tiau hahahaha. how did it happen? God knows.

and all these took place in Tanjung. or rather, Mamak Bistro. at USJ 9 and SS14. so yeah, be warned lah. so you don't have to be surprise when your maggi goreng turns into susu ais, just act surprised.

talking about waiters, i reckon its an occupation that nurtures patience. i was once a waiter at TGIF. they pay good =) and its NEVER boring there. also, you'll get to see all types of customers there.

customers who...
'knows it all.' (mocha is pronounced as 'moh chah')
are plain stupid.
treat waiters like dogs.
wants something OUT OF the menu. simplified as VS. (not vern sheng, but VERY STUPID.)
tip well =D
are stingy like wth. one cent not spared kinda stingy.
have sex in restroom. (wth right?) don't ask me how. lazy.
insist to have something their way, and blames the waiters when it sucks. (VVS)
wants EVERYTHING that is free. (even kids meal HAHAHA)

kay. the list is never ending and redundant. so yeah. but one of the funniest thing working there is Zach. my schoolmate/co-worker/futsal kaki. why? he's easily pissed. and to deal with those customers listed above was like well... you get the point. but he tries his best to keep his cool in front of customers. but when he goes into the kitchen. its a different story lol. the way he curses the customers really makes me lol.

"i ask my dad buy over your company and fire you.."
"use your.... to stir your own soup lah!"
"you think you got money then very big ah?.. (1st line above comes next)"

hahaha. i miss those times. anyway, in a totally seperate incident, where i used to attend KCC, terence, jacob and i where having our dinner at Steven's Corner. and we disliked a waiter there who always likes to upsale without permission. and so.. we decided to kacau him:

Terence: bang, give me one teh ais panas.
Jacob : watermelon lassi.
waiter : don't have watermelon lassi, only got mango lassi. boss what is this lah.
Jacob : watermelon juice without water.

*i forgot what did i told him*

we laughed like wth lah. and the waiter wasn't that happy, and started scolding us bit lah. then terence fired him back, saying smt like 'oh you not happy with us now lah, i tell your manager.' those were good times.

anyways, i know what to say to pms waiters now. some examples would be:

milo panas. kurang ais.
kopi susu kurang manis tambah gula.
telur s'tengah goreng.

i don't recommend you to use it unless the situation calls for it.

think i've talked enough. shall stop now.

=)

same tag again.

2008-12-15T06:44:00.000-08:00

1. What is your current obsession?
RISK. yeah, that board game.

2. Will you ever turn vegan?
its like asking me will i ever turn gay. don't answer that. ;)

3. Who is more important to you? friends/boy/girlfriends
among those selection, i guess it would be girl friend? no?

4. Have you ever thought of getting married?
i've declared celibacy until i get married. so err, yeah.

5. Do you think you have enough confidence?
what kind of stupid question is this.

6. How many babies do you want?
depends on wife.

7. What is your goal for this year?
good results for SAM.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
stupid question. pass.

9. What feeling do you love most?
i agree with lindley : "That ~~warm~~ feeling you get after knowing you made someone's day :)"

10. What's under your bed?
Boxes. Ball. one smashed roach.

11. Is there anything you want to tell people who hate you?
i love you.

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i love you.

13. What does flying mean to you?
i love you. (love answers everything. even the question below.)

14. Who do you love?
i love you.

15. Who do you think is hotter? edward cullen or jacob black?
stupid question. pass.

16. List what you like most about the person who tagged you.
wahlao. lindley! you were waiting for this right? kay lah. i like her... laughter ;)

17. What would you really like to do right now?
play RISK.

18. What will you become in the next 10 years?
a someone for God. fuhh.. holy.

19. How to find the right partner?
don't look left la. look up for the answer lol.

20. What are you wishing for right NOW?
more money.

21. Do you like manga and anime?
yeah i love mango and animals.

22. Do you like stupid tags like this?
no. but i'm bothered enough to do it.

Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.

so its with everything i am

2008-12-02T10:23:00.000-08:00

KUALA LUMPUR: Many Malaysian medical students overseas who take examinations in a foreign language suffer from depression when they return.

Physicians for Peace and Social Responsibility (PPSR) vice-president Datuk Dr Abdul Hamid Abdul Kadir said that large numbers of young Malaysians were being trained in foreign medical schools in Indonesia, Russia, India, Poland, Britain and the Republic of Ireland.

At a forum on Saturday organised by the PPSR, it was highlighted that at least five such houseman are found to suffer from mental illnesses every month.

“These countries have varied systems of medical training and different types of patient care, based on the emphasis of the country. As a result, many of the students who go there undergo a culture shock,” said Dr Abdul Hamid.

“Coming from different universities, backgrounds and experiences, they have difficulty relating and working, especially the weaker students,” he said, adding that there had been a sudden sprouting of many public and private medical schools.

While the schools have increased, however, the number of teaching hospitals have not.

Dr Abdul Hamid said that although there was an increasing demand for doctors, the standards and quality of patient care should not be compromised.

“These are the major concerns which the country’s healthcare and medical educational planners have to constantly bear in mind so that the value systems governing the training of our doctors are never lost sight of in the short term and the long term.”

by M. KRISHNAMOORTHY (The Star Newspaper 2008)

this particular article interest me. especially this finding "it was highlighted that at least five such houseman are found to suffer from mental illnesses every month."

i don't think culture shock alone cause them to suffer from depression. so let me be abit bias for minority's sake today. i think that students sometimes don't have the freedom to decide what they want to study. and one of the reasons why is because their parents 'decided' what's best for them. afterall, mum and dad KNOWS best.

the traditional chinese and indian parents (usually) would be the ones to dictate their child's future. one classic example would be deciding what course their child should take. e.g. parents insist that their child pursue medicine. full stop. i even know of a friend whose parents refuse to pay for his education unless he studies pharmacy, and that friend of mine is talented in humanities. i just don't get parents sometimes. do they want to see an epic fail and then ask whats the problem?

i'm not a racist. but conincidentialy, indians have this mentality also. some tanner friends of mine don't have the freedom to study what they are good/interested in. but because of their parents insistency or 'pride', they are forced to study what they don't want to. for instance, (let me use schoolboy's language) if a student apparently SUCKS in science subjects, why force'em to study to become a doctor when the results are telling you otherwise? some parents just don't understand. but we can't blame them also lah (i guess its their brought up). its life.

usually its the chinese and indians who kena all this lah. i feel for you all. well, look on the bright side, when you study for something that you suck in, fact says that you might not do so well, and then get depressed and all. and the stats highlight that 5 people per month goes cuckoo only wurt. what are the odds. don't get me wrong. i'm not saying that this issue is the sole contributor to depression for medical students. but i think that there's a high chance lah.

anyways, the reason i'm typing so much about this is because i can't help but feel annoyed over this issue. i mean, everybody wants a life of their own, and i think its safe to say that parents need to know that education is not only in their control, but their children's too.

okay. i'm done venting. i wish whoever thats gonna pursue medicine or whatever your parents 'ask' you to the very best.

before i go, here's something that i find quite amusing. i heard from a particular lecturer that one of her students that is really good in science related stuff (usually scores high A), applied to some prestigious uni overseas (then what? m'sia?) to study humanities. i find it funny that people who are good in something wants to study something which they might not be good in. and vice versa. oh world, you are one funny place.

p/s : if you went through all i've written above, i salute you. for one, you've patience. secondly, you don't mind reading crap.

=/

i think

2008-11-27T07:50:00.000-08:00

i think people needs to know or feel alot of things.

its a general statement. i don't wish to elaborate more. okay, just a short update on what is and will be happening. (don't bother to correct my english, i'm malaysian darnit.)

anyways, this week has been quite unproductive. i've been sleeping like a pig until the afternoon, that means i get to see less of sunlight than nightlight. yeah. so there goes my plan to sleep early wake up early. for a specific reason =P

other than some camp worship practice and dance practice, i've absolutely nothing to do. therefore i feel quite useless wan. so i've decided to start going jogging everymorning, since the weather in the morning here is like genting. cool. syok.

kays. my life now is just plain boring lah. so dont ask me hows life after SAM. i'll tell you smt stupid like i miss the stress. sigh. in the coming weeks, its gonna be the MOST busiest (haha most and busiest are redundant.) time of the year. december has never been a relaxing month for me. this is my awesome~~possum~~ theory:

as you grow older, december grows busier.

think about it. being a kiddo, december just means PRESENTS!! but as you grow older, your no. of presents decrease. hence, your happiness decrease. and instead of enjoying december, you end up being caught up in business. or busy-ness.

the overrated xmas.

no i'm not complaining that its bad. but despite all the commitments, i love the month of december. its busy-ness and all. lemme enlighten you.

Dec 7-10 youth camp
Dec 18 SAM results!!!
Dec 19 & 21 My Hope
Dec 22 Christmas Dinner
Dec 25 Christmas
Dec 27 boyfren's bfday

and i'm gonna do a suicidal move now. i'm leaving to Vietnam on the 26th. and that means i'm unable to celebrate my bf's b'day. gg.com.myomgwthbbqwahlaoehdie. very nice. i'll be ~~black~~ back on the 11th jan '09. yes, i'll not be celebrating new year in m'sia. for a change in Vietnam. where i can fire as many fireworks i want. (i think its legal. i think.)

anyways. i'm extremely broke now. i have an expired RM126 cheque with me. its expired because of my stupidity. don't ask. and plus the month of december is not cheap. consider the dates mentioned above, lemme do a cost breakdown on each of'em.

Dec 7-10 RM 140
Dec 18 -
Dec 19 & 21 RM 10
Dec 22 RM 30
Dec 25 RM50 at least
Dec 27 RM(private)

so you add them up and get the grand total of RM230. minimum. and if i deduct that amount from my cheque, i still have RM104 to beg from my parents lol. but thank God the Vietnam trip is sponsored by my aunt lah =)

okays. i guess this pretty sums up my month of December.

p/s : my b'day falls on the first day of CNY '09. less cash for me i guess. =(

=)

there will be a day where..

2008-11-23T10:55:00.000-08:00

there will be a day where you'll see no cars on highways in the broad daylight.

there will be a day where you'll pick up phones, and find no tones.

there will be a day where you'll find no access to every dotcoms.

there will be a day where you'll find no truth in newspapers. or even newspapers.

there will be a day where you'll see the sky lose its colour.

there will be a day where you'll see the capability of desperation.

days where you'll find that money would no longer carry value.

days where you'll see the morality of humanity fall.

days where you'll hear of nation rising against nation.

days where you'll hear of ruomors of wars, of pestilences, of famines.

days where you'll find anywhere under the sky is out of bounds.

days where you'll hear people saying "hell on earth"

where safety no longer exist.

where peace is lost.

where hope vanished.

where love ceased.

there will be a day where you'll think about this post. and realize you made a decision. to ignore. to laugh. to say 'eeyer, why so dramatic.' whatever, we all know that the world is heading towards worse than better. so i don't feel wrong, or too early in saying that we're in for some 'interesting' time soon. but here i am curious:

if you could, what would you do to prepare yourself for that day where everything fails.(unless if you think you would be dead by then)

what would you do?

the more i see the less i know

2008-11-18T09:55:00.000-08:00

i've so much to update about that i don't feel like updating.

afterall, drew would be updating bout me shopping. thanks to munyee and him, i've no privacy shopping at the cost of their 'fashion advice'.

i feel violated.

anyway. i've been feeling really moneyless and unproductive lately. my RM126 cheque got expired lol. because i enjoy seeing the figure so much that i refuse to convert it for use. so now i've to go to the Star's main office account's department to get another one.

stupidity.

other than that, i deleted paint a few months ago from this com. and it strikes me now how awesomely inconvinient it is to live life without it. can't edit screenshots no more.

to end this post, this guy from liverpool would like to do it for me.

he's got THE perpetual 'give me one tight slap face'

even the referees could not resist.

=)

sing! sing! sing!

2008-11-16T03:23:00.000-08:00

yup. just found out that for ALL sessions of camp. i'll be on duty. i'll either go back with a sore throat, or a really sexy voice like ~~i always do~~ last time.

anyways, effective today i'm no longer a probationary driver. that means, bye bye to this:

i actually thought that i wouldn't be able to find this image through google image. but then there was only ONE blogger who actually took a picture of her p-sticker. so there you have it.

okays. exams are over. and i'm considering to get facebook or not. since they say i'm not happening if i don't have facebook. sigh. how ar.

=)

the dumbest thing ever

2008-11-13T09:00:00.000-08:00

is to lose to a second division team.

i'm abit doubtful on scolari now.

and i think for the first time, i'm upset and angry over this loss.

football must be eating into me.

o-m-g! u-on-t-v! smt smt like a palm tree!

2008-11-11T10:36:00.000-08:00

in EXACTLY half a day time.

i would be getting my butt out of D26-28 with a huge smile on my face.

the air would be a lil sweeter. head a lil higher. feet a lil lighter. smile a definte wider. spirit a lil brighter. and everything else a lil 'better'.

one thing i would comment on not only SAM this year, but life this year is:

time flies.

its just like ytd that G7 met mr munin for the 1st time. ytd that jack ate the whole sauceplate of chilli padi just for a freaking ramly (kiahsu). ytd that the security guard came and say: "SAYA SUDAH TAU ITU AKAN JATUH". ytd that we teased Kuharaj and Kaesha. sorry i beg to differ, we still do it as long as we see them. and ytd that we thought joe and jack was gay. (and still do)

oh well. back to studying for now.

its the final lap.

p/s : i notice that i keep farting when i sat for all SACE papers.

=)))

you were meant for me. and i was meant for you.

2008-11-08T09:07:00.000-08:00

2 more papers to go. namely biology and chemistry.

i've a very weird feeling for bio. its called can't wait to sit for it feeling. whereas for chemistry, i would just say as i did before

i have no chemistry with chemistry. but hey, i guess an A might be in a really small range. dunno lah, see hows the paper 1st.

btw, SAM is officially over. and the exams would be officially done by november 12th. and i'm really looking forward to say i'm done studying for the year.

anyways. i had a really really REALLY weird dream ytd.

i dreamt that i really liked this girl. she was always wearing white. and i've never seen her before. and so we were Google Earthing. and for some weird reason AJ was there, and we were trying to show her some place actually.

next thing you know, me and that girl were in that place. was in a house. in daylight. tv was on. ceiling fan was spinning. an indian woman in her 60's sat at the couch. wearing white. and she was quite hostile. okay, this is gonna be the STUPIDEST part.

the indian woman took a weapon out, and so did the girl i like. and they were fighting. and the girl i like won. (i think she kiled the indian woman wth.) but suddenly they were fighting again. (@.@ i know, dam wth right?) and fight fight fight. the indian woman manage to badly wound the girl i like, umm lets just call her girl A lah.

and so, th.. kay wait. before i continue, if you've a thing againts mutilation. i suggest you stop like here.

and so, the indian woman CHOPPED girl A's right hand off. i took a knife and threw at the indian woman. it impaled her arm. she sat at the couch and threw two knives at me, it missed. one on my right, the other on my left. then she threw that girl's mutilated hand to me. i was sad lah.

then i took that mutilated hand (WTH i dunno i wth doing is), i held it like how couples hold hands. and i walked towards that girl. and knelt beside her. holding that mutilated hand. and talked to her before she died.

the end.

this is the most freaking wth dream i ever had. seriously. and the weird thing is i can remember so vividly. of all things to recall. mutilation. wth wth.

okay. in a seperate dream. i dreamt abt caeme. -.- pls don't ask me why. i dreamt that she was going for lunch in taiping along with gideon and sam. before 365 today. or, yesterday rather.

dreams are fun lah. because they're dumb. illogical. yeah. but its always a possibility to put it to practice haha.

anyhow agian, went to watch Arsenal against Manchester Utd with sam, joel, gideon and michelle!!! haha. me and mich were the only anti MU fans there, she supported Arsenal lah. ~~cuz of fabregas~~. anyway, first 2 goals came from Nasri of Arsenal. we were overjoyed. but then, towards the dying 5 minutes before 90, rafael da silva, the reserve who didn't even have his name on the substitution pop up thingy you see on tv scored. the goal was good. and then came the prospect of MU drawing. the atmosphere was more intensifying lah, mich was scared xD and they added 6 minutes of injury time.

Samir Nasri.and his retarded smile.

bottomline: Arsenal 2 - 1 Manchester Utd

think that pretty much sums it all up. =) i had fun laughing at sam. and gideon. and joel. shanker too thru sms. anyhow, i'll be wearing Arsenal jersey out for the 1st time in my life tmr.

p/s : plan to go out with me after 12th. i 'll make your time worth it. =)

=D

ignore

2008-11-04T19:39:00.000-08:00

wohohoho.

maths tmr.

just one more week left.

i don't feel the exam mood anymore.

=)

i waited till i saw the sun

2008-10-27T07:32:00.000-07:00

The Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What are your nicknames?
RT (pronounced 'are tee'), rion, ah lion ah (canto slang), tjwei (used to be)

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
everything. (and thats the problem wth me)

3. What kind of news do you read?
The Star Newspaper, Occasionally Malaysiakini.

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
rubbish. as chin said, recycle mah.

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
unfortunately i don't.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
family and close friends.

7. What do you feel like doing right now?
studying. (crap la, chin you always make me feel bad)

8. If there's someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
yup. i tell my mum and dad i love them.

9. Are you contended with your life?
no. you typo lah question.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Oh God, please let her be shorter than me
nah.

someone that has a heart for God, and isn't ashamed of showing it anywhere she goes.

11. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
if she's my other half already. nothing would make me think she's bad. (i've good judgement =P)

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
i'll rather die then to settle for one. but since you asked, it would be carbonara spaghetti! =)

13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
i usually say both to bi-choiced questions. but aiyoh happy lah.

14. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
irresponsibility. indiscipline.

15. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
slightly taller. working. but maybe dead.

16. What is the thing you love about yourself?
i love everything about myself.

17. What is the type of song you like to listen to (music genre)?
soft rock, rock, alternative rock, new age, and haha. oldies .

18. What kind of supernatural powers you think you have?
you'll see in days to come lah.

19. Have you come to a place in your life where you know for certain that if you were to die today, you would go to heaven?
yes. (obviously this is my question which cannot be removed.)

i tag ah. err. jack lah since he so loa.

***********************

anyways. last friday, 24th October 2008. was the last day of class for SAM students. it was quite an emo day lah for most people. can see girls crying, hugging here and there. classes clogging up stairwells to have their final class picture. classes wearing same colour shirts. or formal (like us). we had pizza for the last time as a class, and i had the oppurtunity to comment for everyone in class publicly, and we sung graduaton song for the 1st and last time so imprompttu-ly as we send the our beloved lecturers off.

yes, we took a friggin lot of pictures. but the problem is, they're all at facebook. i don't have/want a facebook account now. so i don't have any photos. yay. here's something i think bout my class lah.

you guys all are really nice to hang out with. study with. whatever with. i know i've been such a bad class rep xD to yall, hope yall would forgive me haha. and to lindley, you've really been a good ass. you do EVERYTHING for me -.- lol. maybe thats why i find being a class rep such a breeze. kay lah, i'll post an entry entirely just for you soon.

a pic i stole from chin.

my lunch gang. we're missing a few others tho in this pic.

kay. off to physics. not.

p/s : i'm line tapping from a connection called 'DO NOT TAP'. o.0

its just a game

2008-10-19T08:06:00.000-07:00

my voice have been pretty bad for the past few days. but right now, its low and sexy enough to sing lots of michael buble's songs haha. and of the songs i would definitely sing when time stops (as tmy says) would be this:

Put your head on my shoulder
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me that you love me too.

Put your lips next to mine, dear
Won't you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss good-night
Maybe you and I will fall in love.

People say that love's a game
A game you just can't win.
If there's a way
I'll find it some day
And then this fool will rush in.

Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear baby
Words I want to hear tell me
Tell me that you love me too.

Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear baby
Put your head on my shoulder.

p/s : go hear the song.

=)

you think you can play golf better than jesus?

2008-10-16T10:50:00.000-07:00

let me clarify smething with you all. i'm not a golfer. and have almost zero knowledge about golf. i just know some terms of golf like birdie, albatross and umm. i can't seem to remember what par means. yes thats how much i need to be enlightened.

anywhoo thats not the matter, here's something i bet most of you won't know. but before i show you, lemme start with my thesis statement (sorry, if you are a SAM student, you und lah).

in this mordern era of teachnological advancement, nearly every aspect of life has improved tremendously. aspects ranging from communications to medical treatments and even to the extent where Malaysia has actually launched its kind to space (omg a breakthru). humans have indeed reached where really no man could ever think of a thousand years ago (or if in Malaysia, 2 1 years ago). One of the popular paradigm of technological advancement is gaming. or rather, computer games, which are the 'in' thing for teens nowadays... know what.. screw the formalty lah.. wasting brain juice =.=

what i wanna say is computer games are cool. which is why i want to thank EA GAMES (in whisper : challenge everything) for coming up with really good games.

ahh. the all farmilliar looking logo.

they not only came up with really cool games (nigahiga slang) like red alert, NFS etc. (etc is not a game btw) they also came up (oh and so is btw) with sports games like FIFA 09 and years before it. hence the logo above.

anyhow, we all know that with every game they produce, the graphics gets better, gameplay better. almost everything better lah (except price). so there is always a standard of good gaming kept. until came...

Tiger Woods PGA Tour 08 by nonetheless, EA Sports.

or EA Games. whichever that makes you go wth when you're done reading this sentence. wth. piff. kays. without further ado, let me present to you..

The Jesus Shot

awesome ain't it. so much for keeping the standard. but here's the best part. check out EA's response. (i absolutely adore it)

you all would have to watch them to understand what i is saying here.

so, have you had your Jesus shot? if you plan to represent Malaysia, you've to not only do the Jesus shot, but. this as well.

that was attempting to hit a ball that was stuck on a tree. from the ground. well, no one does it better than good old tiger right?

p/s : i wonder what would EA's response be to that. cause i don't know about you, but would love to see him do that in the flesh =)

=)

check it out!

2008-10-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

check out my futsal team's blog =)

these guys are my band of brothas/company outside church.

if you wish to see pictures of me when i look retarded. go there. they love me. lol.

p/s : finals coming up. long hiatus in effect after this post.

=(

birthday update without photos = no update

2008-09-29T13:10:00.000-07:00

not updating about jamie's bday. lazy. and no photos. if you wanna know who's jamie or how was party, go click on 'my specky engineer' or 'my once upon a time' if they even update about it lah haha. i think they might.

anyhow, its holiday week. and back to a month more of intense revision before finals. and right after november 12, i'm free for the eternity before entering uni.

this holidays would be spent wisely. so i'll be vamping everynight and resting in the daylight. jogging in the morning, and trying to be productive for the rest of the day.

been listening to jason mraz ALOT lately. i find his genre very unique. or in powderful engrish : eccentric. but nice. and lately i've been listening to violin instrumentals (i mispelled it as violent at my 1st go lol) and i've come to this conclusion : my son/daughter in the future will definitely be enrolled to learn violin at a tender age.

hmm. maybe daughter can go learn drums and how to fix cars lar. i'll bet guys would be after this kinda girl. or maybe guys like me lah. this is why i might have to live a single life. cuz so far there's NO ONE girl that i came across that fix cars, can ber-drum, and christian. even if got also it'll be out of my league. lol. kay. if i go on i'll emo my self esteem. so i'll stop here. =P

what else. oh. watch this video. its stupid lah. but it'll make you laugh. especially the last scene, its really cute. just click the link:

http://www.bored.com/videos/play/112/Scare-Pranks.html

p/s : i want no, NEED a car. a laptop. and maybe a 'quote myoe "a lady in your life" altho i dun think he rmbrs saying that to me.'

=)

pain, call yourself contrition.

2008-09-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

decided to check my mail. and guess what i found - this letter. but its not the main point to me lah. the point was who that sent it, was non other than my cousin jeremy. i guess God really has a way of bringing back people whom you thought were lost. anyways, found time to read it. reverse psychology stuff. and recently, i've gain HUGE amount of interest in psychology. heh. lets hope it leads to somewhere.

enjoy reading. i know i look like some innocent boy who wants to share holy stuff around to look good and all lol. so here, its a good as what you get lol.

DARK LETTER
PAY ATTENTION TO THE p/s at the end.

Letter from the Devil
This can really make you think. It actually made me really mad
while I was reading it, but it made me realize some things.
Plus,
I had to send it because of the P.S.
This is deep... and I wasn't going to forward or share it, but that last line... you'll see.

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN
I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.

You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.

You are so unthankful, I like that about you.

I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.

Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.

As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.

He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.

You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you

But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.

That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God.

Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.

We have been...

watching dirty movies,
cursing people out,
stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental,
back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.

SURELY you don't want to give all this up.

Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.

I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.

You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in

HA HA HA, you make me sick.

Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.

So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.

All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.

Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that.

Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.

It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.

IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

p/s :If you love me, you won't share this.

well. can't deny the fact that there are certain parts mentioned above are so real nowadays. but oh well. people don't give a damn anyway. but the damned gives a damn about people. what 'do' you?

=/

blog : say no to pure science!

2008-09-18T09:53:00.000-07:00

SAM sucks the lifetime out of you. yes. the life and time.

this is one reason why i don't have facebook. because i've no friggin time to even manage this blog. this is why if you're reading this, and you happen to want to take pure science because it looks fun. i assure you. you'll have no life. unless you're smarter than me lah. oh, there goes your chance.

well. after next week. i would have completed every freaking examination in SAM cept for the finals. so for the past 9 months i've been workin me butt off to try to achieve close to 50% of my internal assesment.

and come november, i'll sit for a freaking test called 'finals' that is 50% worth of assesment value too. it doesn't really make sense when i think of it now.

so i've one month and a half to dedicate myself to books. since the lecturers have already finished all the syllabus (i can never spell that right), i don't get the point of going to college for the whole of october. since trials will be dead next week.

anyhow. this blog is so dead lah. its so dead if i post an entry abt my blog taking a hiatus would count as a ressurection. whoa.

okay. back to studying. because i can't sleep. why? because of the stupid ghosts in my room that enjoy sitting on me when i sleep.

p/s : wanna swap rooms?

=)

long awaited posts

2008-08-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

one reason why my blog is dead-er than it is, is because it still has limited around of readers. thats what i want fer now. so don't ask me to update or link you, i mean you can la, but i must warn you.

i am very VERY lazy. =)

okay, i have actually lots of photos. but dunno how to put them in sequence. so i'll just put the interesting ones up..

..in the next post. told you i was lazy.

this was during teacher's day. last millenium ago.

p/s : if i have one wish that can come true. its good stewardship of time / more time. either would do.

=)

sick and ill are not the same

2008-08-11T06:10:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i last updated. come to think of it. its my 1st august post. and i'm literally dragging myself to update just to fill the gap and also to de-stress.

tho i admit that its not de-stressing me really well at all due to the fact that i'm wasting precious time blogging.

so what you want to know?

that my streamyx got cut because my parents forgot to pay the bill.

and i'm nomad-ing in andrew's house often (jamie koo's fault!).

and that i've physics test tmr which i studied the hell out of me yesterday for (because i thought the test was today -.-)

and i'm very moneyless larh!(its a pattern throughout the year).

and my maths teacher seems to be interested in 'how many times i see caeme physically in a week' more than teaching maths lol. thanks to joe for misinterpreting the word physical btw.

what else. oh.

and that i seriously take no interest in whatever that goes on in the olympics.

and that i'll have one week of holidays/study break to enjoy studying. Taylors likes to give holidays prior to exams so that students can't complain that they don't give any holidays.

and i noticed i said a lot of ands.

and i really feel weird this days. or in correct terms, i feel sick.

btw for those of you that don't know, sick and ill means diff things. says mr munin.
sick - mentally unwell
ill - physically unwell

so there, i am mentally unwell. dunno why. my period haven't come al.... oops. terbocor rahsia.

okay. lastly, while nerding on physics. i read this part and started berlol-ing. people outside must've thot i gone sot or smt. so,

to ppl outside: toldya iwassick!

physics is greatly retarded.

here's the full sentence that i memorised by heart:

''electrons which pass very close to the nucleus are greatly retarded.''

and so are the minds of physicist. chao.

p/s : my trials starts at 7.00a.m. and am required to be in MPH by 6.30a.m. but best of all, was recommended to wake up at 4.00a.m. to get ready for the test. Taylors makes healthy males and females sick. and ill.

=/

2008-07-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

guess who recently won 6 FREE tickets to watch Chelsea ~~trash~~ play Malaysia?

yes. mua/wo/me/myself/i wahahaha.

want to go? here are a few criterias:

polish my socks.
owe me lunch.
and dinner.
buy me a ferret.
slap yourself to prove sincerity.
cross the road with blindfolds.

and then i MAY consider bringing you. its not that hard right?

okay. people ask me how i win. honestly let me tell you something. i NEVER expect to win even a single ticket. so yeah. i guess God must have known that i love Chelsea soo much, that He decided i needed to watch the game. with another 5 more people to enjoy my fart at the same time.

this was how i won. i received some sms from maxis ~~begging~~ telling me to play some sms game and stand a chance to WIN 60 TICKETS DAILY. when i 1st read that, i thought it was a typo. and up to today i still dunno whether it was or not. cuz if it wasn't, that means i just freaking won 10% of their total tickets.

okay so one fine day during LAN. i got extremely bored, and decided to entertatain this maxis scheme to cheat people's credit. so i played that sms game. it wasn't that hard. it was just unscrambling words that they gave about Chelsea. Raj was a witness. he was more tension then me when i played -.- i wonder why. after my 3rd attempt, i reached a place where they say ''you are top 60 rank'' lol. how to beat 60 more people la? so i gave up, until..

i played ocasionally when i'm left alone. just for fun. and i never made it to top 59 -.- so i just really gave up lah. afterall, i was playing fer fun.

then last sat, maxis happily told me i won 6/six/enam/liu/lok tickets to watch Chelsea at Stadium Shah Alam. i was overjoyed. and still am. God is good. =)

and so yeah. wanna go fer free? be nice to me.

then only i may consider. here's a hint. opposite gender has better chances. =PPP

p/s: i'm deeply vexed by people saying 'why so serious?' and 'lets put a smile on that face..'

=)

click to enLARGE

2008-07-15T07:12:00.000-07:00

Things/People/Conversations in year 2008 that made me smile/laugh/laugh until cry:

okay. chelsea qualified for the finals WOOoo(they lost in shootouts in the finals btw)HOOoo. right. i swear when they (they as in the television) showed Grant kneeling down. i laughed. seriously. i laughed like lols in the middle of the night. i don't know why its so funny, but doesn't the picture look funny? i wonder how he got up after that. maybe he felll down and got stuck at that position, and he lifts his hand up fer help, but people all thought he was celebrating or smt heh.

was listening to spanish songs. some girl suggested thing song. so i went and look it up. watched halfway. pressed pause cuz i wanted to do smt. when i return. i... lol. no comment. look at the time i made the commotion lol. btw, i think he immitated chewbacca's voice there. xD

was serenading to the comp. so yeah. singsingsing.PERIOD WTH!?? try reading all the other ads. i wonder what does menstual cycle has to do with that. oh, maybe its pms-ing emo songs. whoa. lame. -.-

i think i should add in my homeschool presentation that homeschoolers are REALLY rajin. they help you to go google of some online dictionary thingy to find words for you when you can do it yourself. so yeah, maybe its a homeschooler thing lah. shall test it on paul. but i reckon i'll get a response that goes "how to spell aah?" xD i'm gonna get screwed fer that btw.

okay fine. maybe he can spell. but umm. this.. is.. =P i wonder how this pic got here. (i'm beyond screwed now btw)

this is a lie : i really did forgotten that he was injured. i only remembered when i was asking him halfway.

don't believe what they say. i don't fart. why? because its silent. (this is where you go ZOMG LAMEEEEEEEEE) yeshh you'll do that.

okays. i still have an episode of terence lourdes to tell. but not today. to end this post. i'll put a someone that promised not to kill me after she reads this post. she promised. and better still, she chose this picture unknowingly xD

this is number 3, caeme

okay. i medium-sized this photo solely fer the safety of the readers. and umm. i believed i errhh.. i'm gonna get raped soon. (wait, can i say that?) (EDIT : yeah, not literally tho @@) but hey, look at the positive side, this post is dedicated to people or stuff that made me smile/laughed. so number 3, you're one of them.

p/s : washing ONE car during breaktime is so Rotaract. i hate Taylor's Rotaract President. don't you? ;)

=P

whats up world

2008-07-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

i don't know what to blog about. but i can tell you that i had alot of inspiration before, to blog. but the reason i didn't was because i wanted the publicity for the Youth Rally to be there. (woah so holy)

now that its done with. i guess i'm obliged to blog. but i dunno what to say.

sometimes i wonder whether john mayer is constantly emo or not lol. cuz he's songs. are. somewhat. emo. haha. but still awesome stuff tho.

omg. i really can't blog today weih. i sound so loa wth lol.

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
but she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change

And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it’s got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Ooh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers

So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

i think that his songs are weird. but singable. playable. and still cool. chao.

p/s : i'm gonna perform on the roadside after SAM. i promise.

pp/s : btw. i'm still sick. hurray.

=)

looking for a breakthrough?

2008-06-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

What is breakthrough?

breakthrough - Any major progress; such as a great innovation or discovery that overcomes a significant obstacle. - Albert Einstein

ignore spelling lol.

so its just going to be another 'youth event'. and it will be until you come. yes, you. this is an

''invitation for you-''

-people whom i ask to visit my blog and also fer people that stereotypes.

i guess many people would prefer to stay at home during saturday evenings to nap, or go out with frens, or study (urgh..) or even just doing nothing. well then, this is your chance to be invited (if you still don't get me) for this awesome event.

you might think that ''nah. its only for the hyper people, or socialble people's event.'' Well, you're wrong. because this event is open fer ALL youths. get the word ALL?

so it doesn't matter whether you're the quiet type, the emo type, the cool type, the bimbo, the whatever, the nerd, the geeks, the freaks, the loud or the short type (like me). you. are. INVITED! to come. let me share with you someting.

recycle? *scrathes head*

no don't worry. its not an environment awareness conference. rather, i borrowed this sign as an illustration.

in life, i'm sure that many of us felt like that. some felt like they've messed up big time, and what they are now are just degraded recycled product.

or some may feel that they're always going in circles. struggling with issues that they are tired of working out. because they'll end up in square one again.

or maybe you think that life for you is like that recycling sign. so you were born. you grow up. you attended kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, college, uni, then off to work, fall in love and get married, have kids, work more, retire. and what? ultimately die. what does it has to do with recycling? simple.

the generation from you. won't they grow up and ultimately die as well? just like recycling. where would they go after that? or rather where would YOU go after your last breathe?

okay. so then what has the youth rally to do with this???

many times people search fer answers, direction and purpose in life. here's your chance to find them.

if you're want answers, come.

if you're 'paiseh'/malu, come with me.

if you want a breakthrough in your life, wheteher or not you're a christian, come. it will be an event worth remembering. and to some, for life.

12th July 2008. keep that date free.

for more information, visit http://www.fgt2u.org/.

and to see our promo video, please do click youth rally video.

p/s : any queries, my chatbox is open. chao.

=)

no more

2008-06-29T09:54:00.000-07:00

something inspiring.

''Jesus i believe in you, and i would go to the ends of the earth.''

how i wish. i wish my heart would be fit enough to even say that.

i pray that one day i would.

and that that day will come soon.

p/s : i don't get inspired by impressive stuff. but rather by impossible ones.

in search for something more

2008-06-24T04:44:00.000-07:00

i don't want my life to pass me by this way. i don't want.

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me

And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need

I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me

In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion
I offer devotion

i accidentally downloaded this song when i was in search of something more hype. never would i thought that this song could knock so much sense in my head today.

sometimes i wonder why i study. when what i so called want to be or supposed to be is not really what i want deep down.

i long to be who He wants me to be. and that is really just all.

not much time left. sometimes i feel that sometimes i've past the halfway mark of my hourglass.

my feelings are usually accurate. so yeah. here i am.

p/s : send me.

=

happy father's day.

2008-06-16T00:36:00.000-07:00

i'm lazy to put the video on my blog. click the link instead, it buffers faster. watch and be encouraged.

click me or don't read

i actually felt like preaching here after watching. and i will. i wonder how many of you would actually bother to scroll your mouse over to the link and click it, and watch the WHOLE 4 minutes plus video. if you did, congrats. then you're allowed to read on.

how many fathers can you find in the world like that? or rather, do you think you can find a better love of a father than that? i can.

I've even found one who loves me so much, that he sent His only son to die for me. despite knowing that i might turn my back on Him. He still did it. out of unconditional love.

and its funny that i should blog about it, since it'll scare readers away. but its Father's day, and i just wanna take this oppurtunity to openly declare HAPPY FATHERS' DAY! to every daddy.

and most importantly my dad that didn't know the camera was clicked. (yes i looked like a nerd. lookED.)

but even more importantly, my Father in heaven.

someday we'll know. tonguetied. vulnerable.

2008-06-12T01:05:00.000-07:00

the perfect one word no one's heard yet.

haha i like that phrase. anyways, haven't been blogging this week. mainly because by the time i get home, am overwhelmed with tiredness. and yeah, partly because college resumed. =D which is a good thing lah i suppose.

anywhoo, i guess a lot's been goin on fer me fer the past few days. and it all started on monday. wokays. let me try to tell you things in chronologically manner. I usually go back from college at 5 on monday. and my cousin fetches me home lah. so what happen was that we agreed on leaving at 5, but then mana tau her class over at 4.30 or smt like that lah. then she decided to leave without callin. only left a msg there. and i didn't see the msg cuz i was busy. so yeah, i was like 'what the...' kinda thing la. so yeah, decided to chill at Drew's house 1st. but (here's the nice part) on the way back, just outside INTI college, we saw Fly FM's MYVI Troopers. I was not in a mood to do anything that time thanks to cousin, but then this Drew just wanna win stuff xD so he started answering their questions n all. oh we were answering on the bike btw while the rest were standing =P so halfway thru this, i found my mood back lah. and then it started to rain! it was amusing watching the people that still wanna win would just stay under the rain to play haha. they were using sunshades for the car windscreen as umbrellas xD

okay. so we won some stuff here and there, after everyone left.. i lazy to tell the story d lah. xD just ask me in the flesh lah. ohkay, went for dinner with Drew WITH (ahah! what were you thinking la) the Fly FM MYVI Troopers lol. seriously. you should see them off working hours la. xD it was fun lah.

it actually made me consider working as their MYVI trooper after SAM instead of Fridays lol. piff. anyways, now i'm left with starbucks voucher, carebear's calender (wth?) and umm. they just called me and told me i won 2 tickets to watch the happening. =D

hmm. apart from all these. guess i've nothing much to say. i just wish i have the ability to recover fast. my stupid 2 legs is still halfway recovering, and all the sport events are happening. tempting. wokays. nothing to say. bye.

planets are found in toilets nowadays.

p/s : i'm 126 bucks richer muahahaha.

how. to. talk. to. you.

2008-06-06T11:14:00.000-07:00

they say its good to be straight-forward.

straight-forward enough??

yeah. i miss college

p/s : monday awaits. and i'm still here.

all day babeh

2008-06-04T09:47:00.000-07:00

lazy to post about number 26! here's a random one.

I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day

I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day

I don't care what it costs anymore
Cos' you gave it all and I'm following you
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what happens I'm going your way

All Day
All Day now
All Day

Anyone around can see
just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too

awesomeee. tho its quite old. they still sound as new as today.

wokays. updates. went out with me cell people fer lunch on tuesday. (i'll post the pics when i get the photos) anyhow, some of us went fer movies later in the evening.

went and watch 'once' omg. sam classified it as the ''failure's show'' xD its quite emo lah. and the other guys wanted to leave the theater to watch something else quarterway xD (notice its not even halfway) anyways, you've to pay attention to the lyrics of the song that they sing, cuz its about their life, or you won't understand the movie. omg but the songs that they sing are like dfbhoerognhoivbhoshner gibberish how to und -.-"

anywhooo (adopted from vid) show was quite nice lah. but not recommended fer cool people. umm. the ending was abit abrupt lah. here's wat happened:

in the theater:
screen : *nice music*
screen : *nice music getting louder*
samuel : oh i think its ending d. music getting louder.
ryan : huh? no way la. it can't just end like that, hanging. if it ends now..
screen : *blacks out* Directed by John Carney
ryan : *yell mode* OHMYGOSH! what!??
samuel : *laffs n laffs high pitch*

-.-" later only i und why it ended. cuz the guy also got reconciled. i didn't know that. no wonder i was so lost during the ending part lah ish! but overall. a good movie. if i could hear what he was singing -.-"

crap. i'm frequently using the lala's language ---> -.-" i think i better stop. shall update about other stuff soon. nites world. or rather. gdmornin.

how many times do you cross path with the 'right one'. once? (its from the poster xD)

p/s : celebrated sasa's belated bday today at her place. they thought i was a girl wth lol.

=)

on fire

2008-06-02T10:42:00.000-07:00

as promised:

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you’ll need to leave

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be... (near you)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...

I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge

And I’m on fire
When you’re near you
I’m on fire
When you speak
(yea) I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries...

seriously. awesome. song. guess you guys must prolly think i'm some hardcore fanatic (note that they're redundant) switchfoot fan lol. maybe i am lah. but i prefer to think that i'm in self-denial mode. =P

anyways. watch EL ORFANTO today. in means the orphanage in english. umm. movie was not bad lah. i liked it. the suspense an all. makes me wonder when i grow old and uhh saggy, will i still do this sort of stuff. go and 'suspendify' myself xD maybe i'll just get myself a myocardial infarction and diedd lol. but hey, at least i die in doing what i believe. xD

and imagine my poor wife and all lol. having to cope with an idiot like me always suspendifying myself with all sorts of things. hmm. come to think of it, i think that the girl that i'll marry must have lots. no i mean LOTS of patient with me. especially my accident proneness. in EVERY lil small thing i do, i bound to injure myself. few stupid examples? scroll down this blog/read old post and you shall know what i mean.

anyways. about the movie. i found the most amusing part was andrew screaming when the door slammed twice. xD like wth HAHAHAHAH. he screamed like a girl. HAHAHAHA. omgosh i can't tahan d. best part was after he screamed, the people in the theater laughed xD i laughed also la duhh. its like, the suspense all hilang d, he totally spoilt the mood there lol. damn. i should have recoreded that. oh, andrew, if you're reading this. i'm sorry. i just can't tahan xD its just. too farnee. HAHAHAHAHAHA. its JUST a door slam HAHAHAHA.

piff. what else. oh. despite my cacated foot. i still could play pool lol. and what's best? i'm playing bowling tmr babeh. on clutches maybe xD

kay. next post will be about number 26. freaking problem number.

on one extremely blur day
phone : *ring ring ring*

later
drew : oh i've got a miss call from Zach
ryan : oh what did he say?
drew : err? -.-"
ryan : oh ya its a miss call -.-"

p/s : if you see a swing moving by itself at night, go take a photo of it. you won't sleep well after that. how do i know? hehhehe. thats for you to find out.

=)

I Dare You To Move

2008-06-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

yknow (royalty paid to caeme) what. lately switchfoot written songs has been my teraphy. i don't know how, but after hearing their songs, i feel different xD maybe its just the hype or dunno lah.

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

awesome song. next post is on fire. xD

hmm. anyways, i don't know why so many people don't like Narnia. some find it too childish. others find it boring. but on this hand, i find it interesting. Here's why.

1st of all, the show was from a book. and the author's a christian. if you could still remember the 1st movie, the part where the white witch killed Azlan. it was Azlan who went into that position willingly. the same as Christ, when he was arrested. and then crucified. and when Azlan came back to life, it sort of symbolozies Christ's ressurection.

and so. Prince Caspian. The way i viewed the show was different lah. the Words and deeds that Azlan (the lion duhh) spoke/did somewhat reminds me of God. of second chances. of trusting in dire need. it rung true. thats why i liked the movie, cuz they remind me of God. and putting him in everything that they do.

i want to do that too. no, not making a movie, but putting Him as the main ingredient in all that i do. =)

anyhow, there's still one more week of holidays left before i've to start nerding like one. sigh. quite depressing lol. and umm, and update of my physical life:

i played futsal on saturday. and tore a few fibres ofmy left foot's ligament by overstretching them yay.

on a more detailed note. that happened when the score was 13-13. add them up and you get 26 -.- yes i seem to have a problem with that number. shall dedicate an entire post for 26 one day heh. maybe the next post lah heh. maybe.

neways. on a funky note. i'm still goin out despite my cacat/lameness (hey i'm really a lame person - my foot). so yeah. tues - fri i'm fully booked with different people hehe. prepare fer the attack of the lame lol.

ah lazy. bye.

p/s : haircut. this week. finally. oh and happy b'day to sasa. if she see's this.

=)

You

2008-05-27T10:19:00.000-07:00

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You

It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
It's You
It's all I know

this week so far:
busy. bible blast 3. hospital attachments. futsal tournament coordinating. registration shortfalls. humility. relationship with cell boys. guitar. You. movies. plans. bird flew away.

don't really feel like talking much. so i'll just highlight stuff thats been going on around, and in my head. yes the bird flew away d.

yknow, the Bible says pride comes before a fall. lets face it, everyone in existence has pride. that emotion that tells you you deserve the spotlight. that tells you you're better than that person. that you should be the leader. anything in the reach of your power should and must be yours. can anyone identify what i'm saying?

through the strife for authority, so often we lose ourselves. we forget to come to the place where we were once are - humble. Greatness in this world defines itself through fame, power and money. whereas humility is the opposite, and both cannot be written on the same page. why do i say so? name me a great leader/person in the world now that is humble. President of USA? Bill Gates? But God says that humble is great.

i admit. sometimes i get offended when someone whom i think is inferior to me have better positions than me. when you know you can handle something better than that person, i guess you might feel that way.

this week. i learn humility in a very special and personal way. i've always thought that humility is basically just unselfishness. hey, it requires so much more than that. so. much. more.

humility - coming to the place where you can willingly let go of your will, and let God's will be played out in your life.

thats my definition. God works in mysterious or what i call funny ways. places you in funny circumstances. with funny people. to humble you. or in other words, to break your pride.

well. i'll be frank. i've not always been humble. and i've not always walked the same path with Him. but, yeah.

thing's will be different from now on.

humility in pictures.

p/s : i look for a miracle. but sometimes i feel that i disqualify myself from one. talk to me pls, You.

=/

insects are suicidal. suicidal. suici...

2008-05-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

kay. thing was. eventho i had pictures of seo, blogging it seemed abit. gay. and um. didn't have time lah. why? because this week is mah mid-terms babeh.

see the good thing (singular) about exams is that you have no classes on. the bad thing is, everything else.

lol. and i was on time for my maths paper the 1st day. but today i entered the freakin' wrong class #@%!%@#$@!$#! malu like COW man. NEVER in my life i would imagine me being such a noob wth. lol. never. no. bloody hell it happened to me today -.-"

this is what happened fer maths lah. exam starts at 11.30, i woke up at 11.10 in Shah Alam. and Taylors is in Subang Jaya. hallelujah! my dad rushed me to Subang, to College, and instead of asking him to pull by the guardhouse, i asked him to stop me at the sidegate which was nearer to the exam venue.

the sidegate was locked wth. so i climbed over it and ran all the way to DR2. saw the door just JUST closed when i reached there. so i went up to it, opened it, and this were the 1st few words i heard: "your reading time begins now."

LOL. wasn't late nor early. but betul betul on the dot hahah!

as fer what happened today fer my ESL exam. it suppose to start at 8.00, i reached college at 7.45, when to MPH, didn't see my class name outside, went to gallery, didn't see it as well. went to D+twenty+something, saw Ms Indra outside, told her i forgot the venue of my exam (hard to find carefree people like me) and guess what. she told me she can't remember too xD and so i ran all the way down to the office to find out, went back up, and went in. to the WRONG CLASSROOM.

opens door, told the teacher i'm from which class, and she said: "oh behind there *points to the back*" and so i walked. no farmiliar faces. made a u-turn back. all eyes on me. teacher asked again, "which class you're from again?" to cut the stupid story short, my class wasn't there. -.-" exited the room feeling so.. good.

anyways, turn out my exam venue was the class Ms Indra was standing outside (and she didn't know. heh.). so near yet so far. btw, i made it before reading time despite the stupendency i went thru.

kay wat else. oh. i had chemistry test today yay. (i'm leaving it there before i break my keyboard.)

bio tmr. physics on friday. piff.

one thing i notice near my exam seasons is stupid insects always like to kacau me. in other words, stupid insects suiciding. no photos taken as they're. too. yucky.

i remembered for common test 1, a big fly was buzzing around me while i was trying to read mah physics, so i took a pillow, slapped that buzzer. it flew and hit the ceiling xD and fell on the floor. demobilized and all. and me being so stressful and sadistic, took a lighter (i always carry one with me for self defence) and fried it. went and study, got bored, fry it again. so yeah.

and ytd while studying fer chem *breaks keyboard* lol. a mosuqitoe happily came, wanting to suck my blood. wait, before i continue, i don't understand that people that says to mosquitoe SUCK MY BLOOD actually exist in this world until i knew xxxxxxx anyways thats a different story. so came the mosquitoe, tried to kill it my clapping it in between my hands (thats what environmentalist do, cuz they're against Shieldtox xD) i missed. but the mosquitoe ended up on the floor xD dunno why. so i burned it hee. then came the second mosquitoe, yes i killed it this time. burned its remains as well. and i found myself saying 'double kill' -.-" then guess what, saw a third mosquitoe, went to it, smacked it, and missed. but it ended up on the floor as well, which i really dunno why. so mah burn it lorh. so yeah. triple kill =)

omgosh i'm actually talking about mosquitoes.

anyanyanyanyways, todays the Champion's League Final. Regardless to say we know blues the winner. (say it fast)

watch this man

heh. neways. lazy to go on. chao fer now.

p/s : joel han, if Chelsea wins, thats my birthday gift to you. but if Man Utd wins, nah, better not talk nonsense lah.

=)

Seeyou Seeoo

2008-05-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

Today was Seo's Farewell. He left incompetent SAM for STPM.

SAM = STPM
Hence, A=TP
Adenosine Triphosphate

lol. i think its too clear for G7 that their class rep is really lame. with all the e=mcsquare (cant find the 2 for the square) to pranking the whole class all at once to i dunno la, lots more lame stuff. anyways.

G7, could yall send me some photos abt seo's farewell? =P forgot to bring me cam on that day heh. yes, i wanna blog abt seo if thats what you're thinking.

until the photos are in my com, this post will be left like that lah.

p/s : i'll be back fer editing.

Things that i do (that make you go zomg!)

2008-05-08T06:51:00.000-07:00

lately. no, not lately. i don't know whats wrong with me. or rather this brain of mine. apart from the fact that i forget stuff (but not ppl's names) so easily, i'm accident prone and careless in so many other ways.

here's the list of smart things i did in life so far. (note that this is a post worth dying for.)

(oh. also note that there is no top stupidest thing whatsoever. because. when you're ryan. everything you do IS the stupidest.)

#1 Breaking a bottle of thinner in your bag
procedure:
1.put thinner in bag when you're in a rush
2.walk around with bag on
3.when you reached tiredness, throw bag on floor
4.rest on sofa for 10 seconds
5.stand up in freak mode
6.open the bag an say #@$@^%#$*#^&
7.throw broken thinner bottle away
8.clean books (30 minutes)

note: that the cleaning part is 6 times longer than all procedures before it.

#2 Going for physic test without your calculator
procedure:
Part A
1.get cheated into signing up for SAM at taylors
2.go to pure science (must take physics)
3.learn and study physics

Part B
1.when ready, sit for test at MPH
2.walk in hall
3.sit at appointed place
4.take out stationaries required
5.look around and notice people have calculators
6.enter freak mode
7.turn behind and ask for spare
8.thank God there is spare. (and for lindley)

#3 Playing badminton with price tag in pants
procedure:
1.go to sports shop and buy new pants
2.go to badminton court
3.wear new pants
4.play life out
5.sit in accomplice's car
6.reach accomplice's house
7.get out of car
8.feel something up your.. =)
9.put hands in pants (the rear part)
10.pull out weird stuff
11.look around to see no one saw the price tag
12.throw price tag away.
13.laugh like a nerd

note: #2 and #3 happened in the same day. lol.

#4 Getting sexually harrassed in college
procedure:
1.obtain a liverpool fan maths lecturer
2.obtain a chelsea jersey/shirt
3.watch chelsea beat liverpool (as usual)
4.walk in class the next day with Chelsea shirt on
5.put hand over teacher's shoulder and smile
6.sexual harrassment will occur automatically

note: i manage to defend myself and kept my dignity and virginity.

#5 Inflicting ulcer on gums and inner-lip (self)
procedure:
1.obtain a badminton racquet and a shuttlecock
2.hit shuttlecock against wall with racquet vigorously
3.make sure hand movements are wide
4.hit lips with racquet due to wide hand movements
5.stone for few seconds
6.don't shout because pain is overwhelming due to the big force
7.squeeze a few tears from eyes instead

note: i didn't play badminton for a month. its only natural for accidents to happen.

okay lah. i think you had enough d. if i were to go on some more, you would go beyond zomg! and will not be fwens with me. so yeah.

anyways. tmr. or rather, one minute from now, is teachers' day. (note apostrophe after s) without which i won't:

break thinner bottle in bag
stay back until 7pm++ in college
draw mugs
wrap mugs
draw more mugs
wrap more mugs
exercise with Faye around SS15 to SS14 and then to SS15 again
emcee for
conduct games for
panic for

kay lar. maybe the exercise part wasn't that bad. (eh what am i saying.)urgh. tired. happy teachers' day. wear blue.

chinese call it qi ting. but english calls it shiting. condemned toiletrolls.

p/s : uncle say that me and Faye look alike/ like siblings. of all people to compare to.

=/

will less, or willess.

2008-05-05T05:24:00.000-07:00

warning! preachy post ahead!
if don't want to see me in a different way, you may leave. if you want to see me as in am. read.

The Awakening

its not easy. at all.

not easy at all.

you see what you want to be,

your emotion's surrendered.

your heart comforted.

your soul longing for more.

it felt so right to be there.

but its not easy.

to maintain it.

its not.

can one live a little will less?

or completely willess.

to be will less,

you surrender by choice. by will.

to be willess.

you surrender your will.

they say dead people are dangerous.

you know what?

i want to be dangerous too.

____________________________________________________________________

Philippians 1:21
For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

John 12:24
Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain.

____________________________________________________________________

is it even possible to reach that level. i don't know bout you.

but i'm going for it.

as willess i may be,

as dead i may be,

just take my will.

and make it.

Thine's.

Chelsea 3 - 2 Liverpool

2008-05-01T02:19:00.000-07:00

i feel like an online score reader lol.

but i can't help not talking bout the match. i stayed up just to watch it, an slept at around 5.30 in the morning. and woke up at 5 in the evening lol. i is rocks.

the match was awesome lah. the extra time part was the most thrilling part as 3 goals came from just a short period of 30 minutes. it was intense match yesterday between Chelsea and Liverpool. 5 goals were scored - 2 in the duration of 90 minutes, and another 3 from extra time. here's something i picked up from times online:

5 Amazing semi-final moments (Tom Dart):

John Arne Riise scores a late own goal
Many dream of scoring in front of the Kop, though those fantasies do not go quite like this. The defender’s second own goal of the season in the 95th minute of the first leg changes the tie and is a moment of pure comedy horror, when “whack it into row Z” somehow becomes “head it into the top corner”.

Michael Essien's goal is disallowed
Chelsea are celebrating and even the scoreline on television has changed to 2-1 in the second half, but the officials have other ideas, eventually. The assistant referee has his flag raised and Drogba is penalised for blocking Reina’s view while standing in an offside position in front of the Liverpool goalkeeper.

Frank Lampard scores emotional penalty
His mother has passed away six days earlier, Ballack has scored the winner from the penalty spot in the league four days before, yet Lampard takes the ball from the German, who has been brought down by Hyypia (what is it with Liverpool’s Scandinavian defenders?) and coolly slots the ball home.

tribute to pat

Fernando Torres is taken off
With 31 goals this season and Liverpool needing to score as the clock ticks down, you might think that Benítez will replace his star striker only in the event of a truly dire injury, such as decapitation by a runaway combine harvester. Yet it is Torres, right, the Spain forward, not a defender, who is replaced.

Petr Cech is beaten by Ryan Babel
Soon after exhorting his team-mates to show more focus, the normally faultless goalkeeper fails to stop the Liverpool substitute’s firm but speculative long-range shot, caressing it into his net and causing an orgy of mass nail-biting among Chelsea fans who have just started to party.

-end-

well. it was something for Chelsea's manager Avram Grant also:

He must've prayed hard

anyways. the only thing i wasn't happy about in the whole match was Petr Cech letting in the goal from Ryan Babel. so much for being on guard. rawr.

and now,

moscow awaits =D

anyways, not much update on life. its routine and boring.

oh. engrish pic of the day:

i swear its true.

p/s : see vid? i didn't complain about SAM.

pp/s : SAM sucks!! (couldn't contain it. sorry lol.)

=D

i want the champion's cup. no excuses.

2008-04-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

good news : common test is over.
bad news : mid-year test is just 3 weeks away.

rant :

gahh. why did i choose SAM. omgosh, i just noticed that almost everypost i published is a freaking rant about SAM. shall just shut up and not be so complaintive from now on.

okay times up. DAMN YOU SAM!!

lol. had my maths test today, the last torture of CT2. it was *dieded* yeah. that bad, cuz who ask me not to study properly fer the entire CT2. =(

okay. i ~~shall leave my feminine side now and just guy~~ talk.

guess what happened lately. i've lost my ability to count after one when it comes to keeping score in football. =P

number 13

contrary to many beliefs. number 13 does bring good luck once in awhile. xD unless you're someone lifeless. *ahem* i've been waiting for a time like this to rub it in all the Manchester United's fan's face.

anyway. here's what the news read:

Ballack's first goal came off a well-flighted cross from Drogba in the final minute of the first half, giving Chelsea a well-deserved halftime lead against a United side that rarely threatened at the other end.

But a rare blunder by the usually solid Ricardo Carvalho handed United an equalizer in the 57th when his back pass put Wayne Rooney in the clear. A draw would have put the Red Devils in sight of their second title in a row.

Chelsea's penalty came when Carrick met a cross from Michael Essien, with the ball hitting his arm. Referee Alan Wiley at first appeared to indicate it was not handball but his linesman flagged that it was.

Several United players ran toward the official to argue the decision but the referee pointed to the spot and Ballack stayed calm before powering the kick past Van der Sar for a winner that Chelsea deserved.

THE ASSOCIATED PRESS, n.d. viewed on April 28 at http://www.sportsnet.ca/soccer/2008/04/26/chelsea_united_saturday/

this is what happen when you take SAM. you learn to cite for every single thing you read that isn't yours. (its a sad world that we're leaving in, sad to say.) hmm. after reading what they say, i guess i don't really need to be a Chelsea fan to say that the editor is well-deserved to be a Chelsea fan too haha.

random : Raj was suppose to NOTcome for college for a week since Man Utd lost. as usual, he lied.

hmm. anyways. Chelsea's been really lucky for the past few big matches. i do hope they carry on their form lol. next game at Stamford Bridge. they better make sure they whooop liverpool's butt haha.

oh on a random note. i really like Chelsea, but i hate their coach. Avram Grant. dahlah beat Man Utd d still wanna bising say ''they can't handle the pressure thats why they lost. and they might even lose to Wigan and West Ham.''

wth? are all the jews in the world as lost as him? i personally think he needs to take 'howtoshutyourmouth 101 class' before he embarass himself. as usual.

okay. i think i've enough bout bitching bout other inferior and incompetent clubs. sorry. couldn't resist myself. =P

i need to get a pair of these by Friday:

my babies. *eyes sparkle*

can't wait for Friday hahaha. but first, i need someone to teman me go buy them. =P anyone wanna follow?

reason's you should follow me out for shopping:
- i shop like a girl because its economical
- i'm an extremely boring person because you're not
- i'll talk to you about football until you ditch me
- i use the stairs in shopping malls because lifts are satanic!
- i only go to sports shops because it smells sporty there
- i only eat after i'm happy with my goods or i'll suffer from regret

can't think of anymore. but i'm sure that these reasons are priceless. xD bored.

engrish pic of the day:

lol. you can do it in M'sia tho.

p/s : i don't have to take M'sian Studies. nyahahahahahahaheeeehiakkk. bleh.

=)

bored. demotivated. backache.

2008-04-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

Public Bank : our latest service!

very bored now. tired of studying. excuse me.

the only 2 things that made my crappy day today was 'yes that One' and john arne riise.

thank you.(Drogba looks like a r-tard wth)

Chelsea better win at home. or i'll convert into a derby county hardcore.

p/s : i want red F30. sponsor me!

=)

i (silenced h)ATE chemistry

2008-04-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is chemistry test. test is on everybody's favourite chapter - organic chemistry. yay.

this post is so juvenile lol. and i should be studying. but the thought of Mr Yap just.. oh nvm.

picture of that day:

yes! i wail wait.

p/s : i think girls that fix cars are hot. but i've yet to find one yet.

=(

art thou england powderful enough?

2008-04-15T07:36:00.000-07:00

let me tell you my latest obsession - reading stuff at engrish.com! it makes me happy, when skies are grey.

vidhya oh vidhya, i told you not to promote vege in that cannibal's village.

this is what you get for bombing hiroshima and nagasaki. nyek nyek.

in china, falling into the river is not only planned, but executed with care.

damn the feminists!

like i said. japs have no life.

p/s : all my post from today onwards will have a random engrish pic.

=)

pass me by please

2008-04-13T01:44:00.000-07:00

how i wish these 2 coming weeks could be fast forwarded. why?

so i won't have to hand in my crappy looking assignments.(note that is bloody plural. yay.)

so i won't have to sit for common test 2.

so i won't have to attend some career and employment fair thing at tbs.

so i won't have to set up a booth for people that wanna join futsal.

so i won't have to think how to survive all of the above that happens in the same day. =)

lol. welcome to my SAM's life.(i no longer have one.)

anyway, i came up with a graph for workload in SAM. here are some interesting characteristics about it.

- graph of workload (y) against time (x)
- gradient incresases drastically
- graphs pass through points (0,1)
- exist only above x-axis
- convex for all x values

what graph am i?
logistic? i wish.

i like the 3rd point. is says graph passes through points (0,1). in other words, the moment you joined SAM, there is an existant workload already. dammit, Taylors cheated me!

anyway. i think i won't have time to post entries for the next 2 weeks. i'll be either nerding like a cow or eating grass like a cow due to stress. but even if i do blog, it'll be something like 'omg chemistry is *died*' or 'maths is ^$#@#@%^$#@' or any of the like. =)

okay. i think i've nothing more to say. so i'll sing (lol wth?):

"Absolutely (Story Of A Girl)"

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

Now how many days in a year
She woke up with hope
But she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
Now how many days disappear
When you look in the mirror
So how do you choose

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

Now how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this
Every day and all day
Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we're walking too far for the price of our shoes

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who's pretty face she hid from the world
and while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a - girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smiles!

(i remembered posting this song in my old blog. but that was 2 years ago lol.)

p/s : i've been see-ing alot of the number 26 lately. wonder why.

=/

we all live in a yellow submarine

2008-04-07T04:55:00.000-07:00

yellow submarine

yay. chem practical tomorrow. wanted to post a longer post, but i'm really too tired to complete it. so i'll just post some random non-sense.

p/s : i wanna watch movie. anyone wanna go out soon?

=P unfortunately i'm l.o.a.

my dued grace

2008-04-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

guess what. =)

my com is back. =))

and so is my internet. =D

but then guess what again. =X

i've common test in less than 2 weeks time. =/

and i've projects that is dued on the same day as them. =(

therefore, hallelujah!!

why la SAM why. neway, noticed i haven't post any picture of my classmates. so i stole this one:

can you see joanne? (the si pendek behind everybody lol.)

anyways. these are my beloved classmates. without them, i'll probably ~~die~~ be in a better place. =P i'll post about each of them one day. by 'them' i meant the closer ones to me.

p/s : i just remembered. i owe jack a freaking burger. lol.

=D bittersweet =(

all the sad songs ain't so sad

2008-03-31T00:08:00.000-07:00

''The Glass Ceiling''

According to Merriam Webster’s online dictionary, glass ceiling is a noun that means :

an intangible barrier within the hierarchy of a company that prevents women or minorities from obtaining upper-level positions

yeah. thats what i'm going to talk about tomorrow with teacher. SAM sux. =)

anyway. was playing around my thumbdrive recently, and i heard this super old song. the last i heard it was during my SPM time. it was Butch Walker's mixtape. then i got addicted to it. yay.

"Mixtape"

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than that
About me and you

[Jambatan]
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to probably...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you

nothing much to update. kit finally left =(

but its okay. heh. neway, found out that if you eat too much iron, your face will turn black lol.

i know how to be an indian now =D

p/s : i've decided not to cut my hair for another 3 months. to stop me, cut it for me.

=0

fever

2008-03-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

its been awhile again. yes my internet is still dead.

thing is, i was supposed to be at home resting, but here i am in college, blogging. and plus i'm on mc man.

didn't attend class today anyway, must use my mc to the max mar. but the fact that i still had to come to college to do research on my projects later in the afternoon probably just makes me feel like i've wasted another academic day. =( sh*t maybe i did. (btw, mc = medical cert. in case you're really bodo.)

being sick on and off is really crappy.

anyway, as i was doing my research on microwave ovens(don't ask), i don't know how, i bumped into this phrase:

'ignorance a bliss'

that made me think. is ignorance really a bliss? is it really a pleasure to be taken in not knowing what is going on? does it mean you have no responsibility?

the list of question goes on and on. but i realize that as humans, or rather christians, we cannot be ignorant. imagine giving an excuse to God when He were to ask you about certain things in your life, and all you can say is 'i don't know'.

and the reason behind the i don't know is either you really don't know or you didn't want to bear any responsibility in knowing about it.

because in christian living,

knowing means you have to do something about it.

anyways, since i had some time after finishing my research, i actually googled 'is ignorance really a bliss?'

i know i amuse myself sometimes. because unlike most people (i think), i actually treat google as a someone that i can ask ~~serious~~ seriously silly things, and still get answers. thats why my searches in google usually has question marks lol.

anyway, on top of the list was http://www.biblequestions.org/Archives/BQAR367.htm

a blibical point of view summor lol.

kay. nothing to say d. kits leaving this sunday =( no more chinkooteoh picture for another 2 years =((

ignorance, i'll think i'll write a song about you. and how thick the ice you gave me. that i still can't find a way to melt it. so blissful. - its a part of a lyrics of the next top hits with my name as its author. woot!

oh and about the title for this post, why fever? because i'm having fever. since yesterday. since sunday. since the time i was acting on stage for the Easter play. maybe thats why it rocked. =)

but i'm retiring for now tho. too much acting makes you fat. which is why nat is acting next round haha.

piff. i really reall really need more money. and i really really really need to be more disciplined. maybe i'll make an equation and you can test it out for me to value its credibility.

discipline = more unwasted time
time = money
more unwasted time = more unwasted money
more unwasted money = more spare money

which is a good thing. (if proven correct)

p/s : i think i need to stop p/s-ing. anyway, i saw a book in MPH one day. the cover page is super EMO weih. its title is 'PMS'. lol.

fever! =)

my teenage 'homes'

2008-03-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

update. i'm in Drew's house now. and it sucks not having internet at home. lol. home. anyways, heres my latest update duhh. if you're lucky, it might appear in the STAR's r.age. IF you're lucky lah. neways, enjoy :

People say home is where your heart is, and where your heart is is also where you treasures will be. I could not agree more. These 10 pictures below could not have done a better job in illustrating my teenage homes, in non other than Subang Jaya.

Welcome to Subang Jaya.

Where school is a second home for teenage students.

And where the foundation of your future stands.

Where the guys and girls used to hang out during recess.

Where you and i used to meet after school.

Where the guys used to play street-soccer.

Where we used to (and still do) catch up with the girls for the latest movies.

One of the many ‘whereabouts’ we used to play truants for.

Where my treasures, my heart and my home will always be,

Non other than my beloved ~~pkr!!~~ Subang Jaya.

end (=

edit : captions are below each photos. oh, and click to enlarge.

still

2008-02-27T01:45:00.000-08:00

okay. now i'm still at college.

no thats not really what i wanted to say. i can't believe i would actually resort to using the college's comp to blog. yeah, thats how bored you get after class with no transportation to go home.

no point going home. umm. as in, there is no internet connection. oh and the CPU is still like, fried? and 750 bucks to get it back just seems like a pure rip off lah. so there, no comp.

but i miss my comp. =(

life is getting harder without it, i can't check whats in BB6 for nuts when i'm at home. i can't even type out a letter or some documents. i can't read my mail. worse of all i can't go online wth. yeah, but you know, what could get worse right. ohh wait i have one.

i have freaking maths test tomorrow HAHAHA. its the last paper tho.

so that explains why i'm feeling so stress-free now. that explains why i'm bored also lah. thats why i blog lorh.

anyway, remember i said in the previous pst that i would post a beeter entry to open this blog. i had second thoughts that told me to screw it. so yeah. i used a screwdriver and did it already. L.A.M.E. urgh. sorry its in-built.

so. why choose 'still' as my title.

well, basically just to describe how things are now. mostly they are settled down already, no more stress, no more drama and all that kinda stuff. life in college is good. so far. other than the workload i have before me (physics + bio + chem + ESL(menyampah) + moral projects), i still enjoy college. =) maybe i should update you a lil lah. you know about the speech thing i mentioned in the previous entry? amazingly, last minute stuff do get you somewhere, at least for me lah. to cut the long story sh*cuts* i'm in the SAM student council. =D

recently i got voted to be president for the futsal club. tho it was something that i wasn't really expecting, i'm still grateful for it lah. =) thanks to junjun and dia punyer big mouth haha.

other than college, i guess emotionally i'm pretty still. i think i've been like that since last december. dunno whether its a good thing or not anyway. i know that there were somethings that i wanted to settle so bad last time, but nothing ever worked out. and when i finally let it go, it worked out on its own, and now, the ball is in my court kinda thing. but, is it wrong if i don't kick it? should i be obligated on doing so? dunno lah. i just don't feel like doing anything. for now. probably most of you that just read this paragraph will go 'huh?' yeah. thats the reaction i was expecting anyway.

kay. i'm kinda bored blogging d. i'll blog about one thing that makes me happy lah:

Taylors cell is back again =) and its definitely gonna be more happening this time since i'm in it for good. xD there. short and sweet.

chaos. lazy to make this post colourful. but here's a random pic.

the blur is coming back to taylors. can't find other pics of her.

p/s : omg. i need to make a nice header. no comp! =((

apa itu stress

2008-02-17T07:38:00.000-08:00

yes i know this post will definitely suck as an opening post to this blog, but yeah i don't care. i'll just re-open the blog with a proper one on the next entry lah. if i feel the need to.

yes, so what about stress, and why talk about stress here.

#1 no one to talk to about stress. even if there is, they're tengah stressing on something else, and you do the math la. stress + stress = 2stress.

gahh i still got time to be lame lol. anyway.

#2 since e equals mc square. no thats not exactly what i wanna say. since everybody (e), is (=) minding (m) their own business (c square), i just don't feel like ranting lah, cuz i'll make myself more feminine than i already am. shit.

anyway again, here's a picture to illustrate to you what a person would do when he has to give a speech the day after tomorrow to some audience, and at the same time must seat for his examination tomorrow which will contribute to his final examination result and has to think of ice-breaking game that is not so messy and has to think about points to do a workshop on Science vs God and to go for some more examintation on tuesday (hopefully it doesn't clash with speech hooray!) and wednesday and friday. oh, and the workshop is on saturday.

YES i have no air to breathe. even if i do i don't feel like breathing. and yes, i'm hell outta of stressed out now. here's a sample of what i mean:
click to enlarge. duhh. oh it can't work.

piff. know wat? i don't know why i still have the time to blog about this when i have like infinite infinite infinite much to do. maybe is a form of de-stressing.

i hope so.