i'm a little lamb who's lost in the woods

its been really long. blogging is starting to be not my kinda thing. i feel weird blogging now. its like unlatching the door to welcome (not to mention announce the vulnerability of the fort i call 'my life') wrong impressions, stalkers, misunderstandings and what not.

so yeah. i'm against stuff like that bcuz i hate being vulnerable. oh oops. anyways, i dunno what to update my blog with larh.

and umm. i feel like stamping this as an entry d. gahh. okay january. nothing much happening for me. except that i'm working in caremart. for the whole month. pls have lunch with me. or i'll get lonely and talk to skittles wan.

mm so yeah. yay january. oh and someone is gonna turn 21 (i almost type 26 choy!) this coming jan 26! i wonder who =0 but anyways. maybe this is gonna be abit of a turn down, but i don't want to celebrate my 21st birthday on the 26th. (i dunwanna sound so perasan) but, as much as i would love YOU GUYS to celebrate with me, i'm just not free on jan 26th lah. the whole day. and night. but YOU GUYS can always do it another day. before/after/whatever.

january's gonna be where my room looks more people friendly too. as of now, ONLY mua can enter it. no one else . obviously for their safety, and for a good impression's sake. but more emphasis on the former ;) sigh its gonna take forever cleaning. but i must have it done =/ must! God help me. nat also xD

i used to have this thought where upon turning 21, one would already have a gf by his side to celebrate with, one would already have his whole life sorted out nicely like cards all laid out neatly infront of him, and one would have his room clean and neat one would be i dunno.. more MANLY looking already? all of which i obviously don't have. oh well. its a 'used to be' thought anyway.

i'm happy just the way God wants me to be happy about it (its all part of His plan yo). so yeah.. but now i have this new feeling (being 20 and all.. ), i've this urge to find a mate -.- yes. i dunno why, but its there. and suddenly i have a newfound respect for those who are 20 OVER, going strong and still w/o mates =P i resTECPA you all. seriously. maybe i'll follow you guys' example. omgosh what am i saying. CHOY! heh. urges. and what they can destroy.

but yeah. i guess feelings/emotions/urges do not dictate intelligence. (lol i sound so smart wannabe) so its the wait race i'm gonna be running in again this year. until smt h.. sigh. urges.

anyways. i wont be turning 21 alone this year. you see, that is t3h problem. bcuz i dunno what to buy 21 year olds for their bday present without blowing my wallet out of shape. (i realized i only think abt this when i'm 21. or near there.) i ppl exTECPA =P expensive more ada classy punya gift for their 21st. i think. and then they go saying you only turn 21 once marh, expensive abit wun die wan marh. well don't you turn 22 once also? bodoh. but i is different (self praise here, dun spoil my moment), i'll take what you give me with open hearts and hand. lol. unless you give me smt that looks like faeces, i'll see to it that you won't have it on your smile when you leave. =)

i'm really an angel wan.. =) only when no one is looking.

so yeah. posts for january done. november and december is just these lah: fun.work.camp.3NATsinoneday!masquearade.dinners.happyxmas.ncgg.facebook.dota.salary.didisayfun?

and summary for 09, i still have the 2 teeth i loss to celebrate new year with me. eventho they're far apart from my gums, i'll always heart them. 09 was fun lah. cuz i find fun in everything wan. wee..

there you go. and suddenly i feel too old to learn music already. boo you, earth! for making me age.. anywayz. many happy returns, year 2010. =) *toasts to whoever*





p/s : i'm starting to like you already!