i'd just die like that

I don't know what this day will bring

Will it be disappointing, filled with longed for things?

I don't know what tomorrow holds

Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

I don't know if these clouds mean rain

If they do, will they pour down blessing or pain?

I don't know what the future holds

Still I know I can trust Your faithfulness

Certain as the rivers reach the sea

Certain as the sunrise in the east

I can rest in your faithfulness

Surer than a mother's tender love

Surer than the stars still shine above

I can rest in your faithfulness

I don't know how or when I'll die

Will it be a thief, or will I have a chance to say goodbye?

No, I don't know how much time is left

But in the end, I will know your faithfulness

When darkness overwhelms my soul

When thoughts and storms of doubt

Still I trust You are always faithful, always faithful

i think i've come to the point where i'm really tired of fighting. tired using the strength of mine that could never win in the first place. tired of living the endless struggle between who i am now and who He wants me to be. tired of trying. tired of pushing.

today, i hang my gloves up.

in the end it all boils down to how big a piece of trust we're willing to let go, to grow vulnerable, to show weakness, to say 'i cannot do it alone', to allow myself to be broken. and God knows how much i hate doing just this.

but today, i hang up my gloves.

and today, i want to be able to sing this song without lying. God please help me.

p/s: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rP562si-d1Q