its a cool video. ita just 15 minutes long, but i guess its worth it. watch it if you've time. because you are great.
hope this warms your heart. and know that you... are great, you have an amazing face, did anyone ever tell you that? and someday, people are gonna love you for what you are. =P
encouragement really do wonders.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
the art of losing myself
i realize alot of things. i realize the 'so much more' that i've been missing all this while, either because of ignorance or because i want to do everything fast.
so yes. i guess during these few months i've certainly learned alot. in a way its like slowing down. taking a pause to observe the world. i realize that people, are actually quite lonely on the inside. altho they may have lots of company outside (i'm sure you guys have heard this before), but really, when not around people, they're lonely on the inside. even around people you can be lonely, no? you may feel companionship, but it doesn't really satisfy.
i've known some friends, they go watch movies alone. i guess people nowadays would say things like 'sad person' or the stuff like that. i'm also guilty i guess. there was a question i had to answer recently: are you fine being alone?
initially i thought, of course i'm fine. i like being home alone. but let me rephrase the question, are you fine going to the movies alone? are you fine going to shop alone in a huge shopping mall? are you fine having a meal outside just by yourself? etc. well, i'm not. so much for thinking that i like being alone.
something i realized. in as much as there are pros in having company around you, i think there's something we can all learn in being lonely. by lonely i mean - just you, and God. because i believe with all thats going on in this world now, people are all so busy doing their own things, hanging out with frens and all, etc..
that they left God out. Hence i think that God is actually quite lonely lorh. and thats why i feel that a lonely person may find it easier to truly discover God in a way greater than those who aren't. its like, in this aspect of loneliness, the more we give our time to be spent with God (in physical loneliness), that we're actually having a more fulfilling communion than with our many frens. and i guess thats what i really desire more now.
the more i lose myself in this area, the more i want to lose.
you know what? i really don't know how to explain this, but its just something i felt throughout these months. that through the lonely times, i actually feel satisfied.
i'm not good with describing how i feel. and i guess i'm blogging this as a memo for myself.
so yes. i guess during these few months i've certainly learned alot. in a way its like slowing down. taking a pause to observe the world. i realize that people, are actually quite lonely on the inside. altho they may have lots of company outside (i'm sure you guys have heard this before), but really, when not around people, they're lonely on the inside. even around people you can be lonely, no? you may feel companionship, but it doesn't really satisfy.
i've known some friends, they go watch movies alone. i guess people nowadays would say things like 'sad person' or the stuff like that. i'm also guilty i guess. there was a question i had to answer recently: are you fine being alone?
initially i thought, of course i'm fine. i like being home alone. but let me rephrase the question, are you fine going to the movies alone? are you fine going to shop alone in a huge shopping mall? are you fine having a meal outside just by yourself? etc. well, i'm not. so much for thinking that i like being alone.
something i realized. in as much as there are pros in having company around you, i think there's something we can all learn in being lonely. by lonely i mean - just you, and God. because i believe with all thats going on in this world now, people are all so busy doing their own things, hanging out with frens and all, etc..
that they left God out. Hence i think that God is actually quite lonely lorh. and thats why i feel that a lonely person may find it easier to truly discover God in a way greater than those who aren't. its like, in this aspect of loneliness, the more we give our time to be spent with God (in physical loneliness), that we're actually having a more fulfilling communion than with our many frens. and i guess thats what i really desire more now.
the more i lose myself in this area, the more i want to lose.
you know what? i really don't know how to explain this, but its just something i felt throughout these months. that through the lonely times, i actually feel satisfied.
i'm not good with describing how i feel. and i guess i'm blogging this as a memo for myself.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
that was quite a show
i find that everytime i come to this page (editing page), i begin to think whether is it necessary to blog anymore. i'm reminded that the only reason i blogged was because of certain motivations then. and now, as those motivations are gone, i'm beginning to lose interest in blogging. or even maintaining a blog.
you have no idea how many posts i left unwritten. many were started with passion and inspiration, but halfway thru i'll just save it and leave it. they were always left unfinished because i always think they aren't reading-worthy-material. hence, i actually find no need of telling my piece of mind on blogs. cause i want them to mean something more i guess.
the reason i'm blogging right now is because this blog reminds me of the me i was, that made the me now. hence i'm talking to myself now to give a second chance to this blog instead of just do euthanasia. i think thats how you phrase that word. think. i miss my old blog lah.
so yes, i is giving my blog a second chance to hit fame haha. tell the world.
having said that, i think that blogging (to me lah) is for me to understand myself more, but for you to know that i exist lah.
you have no idea how many posts i left unwritten. many were started with passion and inspiration, but halfway thru i'll just save it and leave it. they were always left unfinished because i always think they aren't reading-worthy-material. hence, i actually find no need of telling my piece of mind on blogs. cause i want them to mean something more i guess.
the reason i'm blogging right now is because this blog reminds me of the me i was, that made the me now. hence i'm talking to myself now to give a second chance to this blog instead of just do euthanasia. i think thats how you phrase that word. think. i miss my old blog lah.
so yes, i is giving my blog a second chance to hit fame haha. tell the world.
having said that, i think that blogging (to me lah) is for me to understand myself more, but for you to know that i exist lah.
Friday, March 27, 2009
lifesong
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never come to an end
They are new every morning
New every morning.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord.
Great is Thy faithfulness
i think i found mine.
Monday, February 9, 2009
see it for yourself
don't have to tell me i neglected my blog. it usually happens when i'm 'addicted' to something new. hence the no time to update excuse.
so yeah. no updates for now thanks to cousin xing. and making me addicted to dominion. again. xD
yay.
so yeah. no updates for now thanks to cousin xing. and making me addicted to dominion. again. xD
yay.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian
okay. before i start, just want to announce that my update on vietnam will be coming soon. and its gonna be a looong one. and after you finish reading it, you'll be begging your parents to go vietnam with me. ;P
alright. back to the topic. received an e-mail. had a good laugh. so share loh. nah, read:
1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.
edit: i know shebby! xD
2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.
edit: they complain in circles to reach square one. =.=
3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.
4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.
sexist edit: girls lah! most guys don't have this problem wan. =P
5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam
(b) no transport
(c) cannot find parking
6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.
7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to a American / British / Australian.
edit: so darn true!! JAPANESE ACCENT ALSO GOT WTH. better still, thru the phone!! @.@
8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.
9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.
10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.
11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.
12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.
13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?'
14. When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'
15. When an angmoh stranger kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him.
thats all. i've no intention on causing racial tension by posting this up, its all JUST for laughs, and its quite true (some of them). so yeah, hope i don't end up in ISA for stupid reasons like this. did i say stupid? okay. done.
p/s: despite all the shitty comments i hear about m'sia, i'm still proud to be a malaysian! and insya-allah (it means God-willing), i would want to make here, a better place.
=)
alright. back to the topic. received an e-mail. had a good laugh. so share loh. nah, read:
1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.
edit: i know shebby! xD
2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.
edit: they complain in circles to reach square one. =.=
3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.
4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.
sexist edit: girls lah! most guys don't have this problem wan. =P
5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam
(b) no transport
(c) cannot find parking
6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.
7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to a American / British / Australian.
edit: so darn true!! JAPANESE ACCENT ALSO GOT WTH. better still, thru the phone!! @.@
8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.
9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.
10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.
11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.
12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.
13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?'
14. When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'
15. When an angmoh stranger kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him.
thats all. i've no intention on causing racial tension by posting this up, its all JUST for laughs, and its quite true (some of them). so yeah, hope i don't end up in ISA for stupid reasons like this. did i say stupid? okay. done.
p/s: despite all the shitty comments i hear about m'sia, i'm still proud to be a malaysian! and insya-allah (it means God-willing), i would want to make here, a better place.
=)
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