i love sleeping.

so it has been awhile.

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and its 12 october today. week 12 for monash =) which is good. and not so good. good because it is heading to an eternity long of holidays (3 months plus, i think). and not so good because exams are prowling around the corner. but hey, i'm not complaining =)

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went over to meng yoe's new home today. It was.. nice lah. i'm picking the words carefully so that i don't ban myself from entering his house again. Other than the make-do waste paper basket as a hanging lamp-shade, everything was normal lah. He tried to impress us with his new tablecloth, but we dropped food on it -.- accidentally, of course ;)

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heh. i'm getting very lazy to update nowadays. don't know why, but i suspect its age related (getting old T.T). and talking agout age, i think 09 is passing me by faster come the 3rd quarter of the year. September went by silently, and now its close to mid october already.

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Sometimes this rate of 'time passing by' makes me think about the future. or rather, my future. not really about what am i going to do and all that kinda stuff, but rather what kind of person i will become. Life has always been carefree for me. But i guess, carefree is inversely proportional to age. Still it doesn't mean i'm not completely carefree now, i think i will always remain that way, just that less of it lah. but for now, i think i'm still mostly carefree lah. that is why i find fun in almost everything. How was exams? fun. How was EE? fun. How was this and that? FUN! and i think that because of what i'm made of, i'm generally a happy, optimistic person.

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anyways, i think i've found THE lifelong hymn for myself. its the kind of song you usually hear at funerals. go guess what it is lah. clue : Irish.



=)

Grace is gone

was watching this over breakfast at medan abt 2 days ago. didn't know the title, but found out later on lah. didn't get to watch the whole thing, but i can tell its a good movie.

one part of the film made me realize something: that after people leave, the one thing that their loved ones would miss the most is hearing their voice.

there was this part where the father didn't know what to do with his two girls, and so he calls home while on a roadtrip. Obviously no one was at home, so the answering machine told him to leave a message. But, that automated voice that greeted him was that of his late wife. and he went like "i just called because i missed hearing your voice.."

gosh. i get emo when things that i really care about gets taken away. and i think i would be one who'll prolly lose the will to live if my partner ever leaves before me. or that man who cried like a baby at his wife's funeral. but yeah, i'll just leave thoughts as they are lah.

anyway, on a not so morbid note, its like the season of departures now. not that i'm emo about it, but rather i just realize the loss now. people that you got so used to seeing and hanging out together, are now a thousands of miles away. man, they are so irreplaceable!? despite the many friends you have around you, its just different without them. i guess thats why all my friends are such a huge part of me. =/ yes, i do feel the tug when you guys leave left.

but yeah, facebook makes life better. and that song 'never alone' too.

always late?

i have issues with punctuality. and i need help. so far, this ad has been instrumental in suggesting help. enjoy:

i loved the third one lah xD cracks me up everytime i watch it. oh and the 2nd part of the video's about something else d (the one abt toilet paper).

had japanese buffet today. awesome stuff! think ly might blog abt it. go see her blog =P

Life in Uni : Tonight's Gonna be a Good, Good Night~

tonight, officially at 10.00p.m., i ryan teoh, hereby declare the "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!" ON!!

featuring cool activities like:

reading EVERYTHING (till you drop) about marine life and how heavy metal affects them! ahh. HEAVENLY! just like the picture!

no not this kinda heavy metal..
..but metals like MERCURY! CADMIUM! ARSENIC! and all those LOVABLE! metalloids you can find in a WHAT??

PERIODIC TABLE!! andandandand if that doesn't make you feel hyper enoughh! ARGHH!

you can go read up ALL the cool E-JOURNALS (echoes)!!

and after you're done deciphering and reading those HOT STUFFS, you can begin..

EXACTLY!! and if you can't reach ONETHOUSANDTHREEHUNDRED words which i highly doubt, you can repeat the

READING!! ARGH! and then you,

READ AGAIN!! until you

NOOOO!! you can't COMMIT SUCH A SIN (echoes)!!

especially not on "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!!" so reCHARGE your energy with

no, coffees are for AMATEURSS.. what!? A-M-A-T-E-U-R-S! but reCHARGE yourself with

YESS!! mmmmm..

ARGH! handsome xD

in a seperate case (and more sober tone):

i promise myself NEVER to have anymore last minute "THURSDAY NIGHT SPECIAL!!" because she will call me mad after she reads this and i'll freaking diee the following die. <----omg. see? i can't spel day correctly o.0 and i promise myself to read up for crazy assignments like this, and not leave it for a stressed filled frenzy hellofatime doing it the day before submission. NEVER. DO. IT. AGAIN. unless of course, Monash forces me to do so (which they don't because they care for you wan) HAH! depending on how much you pay i guess.

and you must be thinking where or how did i get the books from. got it from Monash's Library. picture this. guy walks in empty handed. walks out with FIVE freaking HEAVY books. NERD GILER SIAL. bleh.

so why waste time to blog? jee i dunno. because i just wanted to destress before going clubbing with my assignments (all night longg). =D

Gawwsh =/ i promise not to repeat this anymore. suffering. tiring. and i need and want my sleeeep. =( sigh. time to get started.

p/s: i've gotta feeling (woohoooo!) that tonight's gonna be a good night!! ohh goodnight lah.

pp/s : drew if you're reading this. apply powerthirst enthusiasm to it. =D

whats not to love about you?

today God tested my ice-cream hypothesis. its not that i had a really bad day or any of that sort, its just that i'm having a sick day.

sick meaning i have sore throat (and stuff that makes me think i've aH1N1). so yeahh, maybe its a bad day lah, but the point is.. even if it is a bad day, i can't have ice-cream cuz it'll make my day sicker. so woohoo God, point taken.

i noticed today (saturday) was quite unusual for me. because i never had a free-er saturday than today. reason being i am sick lah. and because of that, i had to miss alot of things.

morning
missed morning prayer
miss football

afternoon
thankfully i made it alive to 365 and worship practice earlier.

evening + night
missed andrew's farewell
missed going to free tenji's japanese buffet (cousin's farewell)
missed avinesh's farewell


sigh. being sick isn't cool sometimes. altho now i've acquired a temporary sexy voice, i still would give that back for japanese food T.T and yeah, to those ppl whose farewell i missed, i'm really sorry for not being able to make it! =(

and so i'm here blogging when yall are having a great time! sad child.. and yeah. thats my saturday so far. i shall go for dinner now alone and wallow in self pity and die. lol.

well despite all this, altho my day might be sickly, i still think i had an awesome day! and the only reason for it is because..

..'this is the day that the Lord has made, we (i) WILL rejoice and be glad in it.'

-Psalms 118:24

p/s : its more effective than my ice-cream theory.

the 12 tribes

ignore the title of the youtube video. it has nothing to do with its content.

was just looking up david pawson in google, and found this video. yes the title made me curious, and so i watched it. turns out to be nothing as what the title suggested. give it a good listen! really really good stuff.



he talks like a physicist! i really thought he was one.good stuff right? check out 3:23 for the anisotropic jewels. i'm sorry if the science part is a blur, he's just trying to say that in pure light condition, only the 12 jewels becomes extra colourful! whereas the others like diamonds and all don't. =)


Revelations 21 : 19-20
And the foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with all kinds of precious stones: the first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald, the fifth sardonyx, the sixth sardius, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst.


so i guess thats where the name jacintha comes from.

anyways, i just can't imagine anyone writing off what he just said as coincidence. isn't it too much for one?

what is your one thing.

recently i've been struggling to keep my head afloat amidst the waves of life. and i think i've been thinking and focusing on everything that i shouldn't. i feel as though i'm being chained to negativity, because i can only go so far with that limited optimism. but yeah, life goes on for me.


happened to read 'the freedom in Christ' today. and i guess in a way, its a reminder of what i'm (we're) called to do anyway:

People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centred.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness makes you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest people with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest people with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favour underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for the underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help, but may attack you if you help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you've got and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.


anyways, here's something i picked up from pastor HS. whenever i'm faced with a day where everything just has to go wrong (in other words a bad day), i will go out and buy myself ice-cream. yes, ice-cream makes me happy, and it will serve as a reminder for me that still there is (at least) one good thing in every bad day; and of course that God is good!

so right now, i'm extending an invitation to anybody or everybody that feels bit down lately, to join me for ice-cream session this coming 30th July at Baskin Robbins or wherever lah. i can provide transport as i'm classless on thursdays. and even if no one wants to go, i would still go and treat my self alone. =)


on a side note,
last weekend was kind of.. intriguing. a question was raised "what is your one thing in life, that God has called you to do?"

i would really like to know.

john 16:33

Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I'll stand.

In love never to end,
To call You more than Lord,
Glorious friend.

So I throw my life upon all that You are,
Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance, with You,
Where the love lasts forever.

And forever I will sing,
Lord forever I will sing,
Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.



"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

he'd do anything to see you smile

Unforgettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that's how you'll stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too


this song never fails to make a bad day, better. =)

hope

You crown the year with Your goodness,
and Your paths drip with abundance.



life/the world disappoints; but the Word reappoints.

number 44

God only can help us as much as we allow Him to...

i ♥ thai ads

weird things is at its peak of occurence nowadays. if not for you then at least to me. especially in MY toilet.

today, i went in to do some toilet stuff, and then there was another baby roach running around. i think its the other one's sibling.. but oh well, it enjoyed the same of its other sibling if that were true. =) just that i made it quicker this time, using the same technique of course.

and then, i went to the same toilet a few hours later. switched on the light. look around. and while i did some small business *PIAK* a lizard fell..

no no it did not fell on my.. or anywhere on me (pls try not to be too imaginative). it piak-ed somewhere near me. i was staring at it and this lol thought came to my mind..

"hey go pee on it!"

hahaha i asked the lizard whether it wanted me to pee on it. talking bout weird. think its eating into me. anyways i didn't lah, what a sick thing to do. i just left it to find its own exit. and hope it doesn't crawl up to my butt the next time i close business deals.

why does it only happen in my toilet. heh. i pray that this blessing would go to others as well. esp this one person that also lives in kk. =)

speaking about lizards. here's something i found in youtube earlier today, and the conclusion i drew from it (and a few other videos) is (are): thai people are creative. i like. enjoy:



before that (oops too late haha), if you're scared of lizards, this would prolly make things worse, or (if you're an optimist) cure your fear.

have a nice day. just remember never to look up with your mouth open. i've some other stories to tell, but i think today's share of weirdness. is. enough. having said that,


nuff said.



another thai ad coming soon! (seriously hilarious!)
=)

i ♥ insect torture

no its not my latest obsession. i think the sadistic attribute is in-built. i'll give you some cerita silam later. lemme tell you what i just did.

i was doing big business in the toilet when i saw this baby roach running around at the corner. so to cure boredom, i took the.. what do you call this:

think its called a sprayer. anyway. it wasn't any ordinary sprayer, the water comes out really powerful-ly wan. as in if i tried to wash my butt with the water coming out at that speed, i'll probably make it bleed. =/ okay umm. so i used it and sprayed the roach lah. but there's a technique to do it.

i sprayed with very short intervals, didn't just tekan habis-habisan. but tekan. stop for half a sec. then tekan again. kept doing it for sometime. and so that roach was being tossed everywhere. then i decided to spray it in a way to see how high it could actually go up the wall lol.

anyways to cut the long story short. i poured listerine on it to see whether it'll die. apparently not. so i poured some goo-ish shower gel on it and left it. i think it should be dead by now. *goes to check* yup it drowned in shower gel hahaha.

so yeah. i dunno why, but i really find some happiness in killing insects. or rather torturing them to death. =)


yup. so thats for today. i'll just give one more sadistic approach that i commonly use when i was about 12 years old. my old house where i used to live in then has a backalley plagued by cats. and so everynight i can hear them either making love or giving birth or fighting. so one evening, i went to the backyard of my house (facing that cat-plagued backalley) with a cup of water.. from the termostat. =) and there was this cat sleeping nicely by the stone steps leading to the fence. so i went and just poured that cup of just-boiled water on it. and NEVER in my life i saw a cat jumped without using its limbs!! its body became like a spring and it leaped sideward instantly and started running.. and if you think this is violent, i've more to tell. but not about me lah, this is my most sadistic one so far. other than asking my fren to roll over a cat's corpse. =)

so. i guess i should lose some cat-lover frens by now d. but anyway, i've repented of my sins. and have moved on to play with insects now. =)

to wrap this post up, i'll just tell you about my dream. was taking a nap in the evening, woke up with my heart beating really hard and i couldn't sleep after that. here's what happened. in the 1st dream, i dreamt that one of my friends.. pearly died. and suddenly her friends and i had to live the reality of it. we went to her house and there was no pearly anymore.. and the cause of death was smt to do with either darlie or colgate toothpaste (wth right?). i felt so emo even in the dream heh. anyways, i pray that all these will NEVER become a reality.

and suddenly the dream changed.. there were 4 people involved. paul, pearly, abel and myself. what happened was that we were all seated next to a roof LOL. let the logic sink in 1st. okay? okay, and its something like this lah:


the building on the right and left was about 4 storeys high. and that freak chair is supported by abt 10 long bamboos protruding from the ground. and there were 4 chairs. paul, pearly and abel were seated on them. paul was trying to be calm. pearly was tensioning like crazy cuz her chair was wobbly. and abel.. oh abel. abel was having fun. he was like enjoying every moment of it. he bend his bamboo-ed chair all the way towards the other building (green = scaffoldings) on top of the scaffoldings.

and he said: "c'mon guys, try to do this. it won't break."


seriously guys, for the life of me i have no idea what kind of stupid dream that was? i need a joseph/daniel to interpret it for me.

anyways, what happened next was this. in that dream, i was suddenly hanging on the roof at the red circle (i've like no idea what happened to my chair), holding on to dear life (or so i thoughtdreamt). i did everything i could to get to safety, but to no avail. i looked down and saw that if i fell = mati absolute. so to cut the long dream short, i fell and.. died (and the cats and cat-lovers go YES!). and woke up with my hands and legs all feeling numb. i kid you not.


and so that concludes my blogging for today. dream interpreters pls step up and interpret my dream. as a reward, i'll offer you a position as prime minister over my room (so you can clean it up for me).

aren't my dreams morbid?





quote of the day : fire power?
xD

ten shekels and a shirt

thought it was really inspiring. and the issues he addressed really helped me see what true christianity really is. however this video is just but a summary. the whole sermon is about 52 minutes long lol. its at youtube, search for paris reidhead - ten shekels and a shirt.

really really good stuff. listen up the whole sermon there if you've time, you won't regret it!



=)

i told you so

this is 'the another night' where i find myself looking at the bed.. thinking to myself how nice sleeping is.. and how i wish i could get some of that nice juicy sleep =/

its such a temptation to have a bed in front/behind/beside you when you work lah. so the best way is to work on top of the bed =D which usually result in me dozing off anyway. =(

anyways. smt lol happened just now. was taking my shower. so, i shower shower shower lah. then there was a lizard on the ceiling right on top of me. and i found myself telling it "if you fall on me, i'm gonna kill you.."

so it went away haha. or so i thought lah. i was washing my hair when i felt i stepped on smt soft. looked down. guess what. i stepped on the freaking lizard..

few things that came to my mind when that happened. one was, if la i get married next time, and my wife happen have the same encounter, i dunno whether to laugh or to help her.. if wanna help also how to help? imagine your wife screaming at the shower and all lol. and you go in panicking just to find a lizard running for its life. or worse. your husband! xD

another thing is smt about crushing the serpent under foot and it will bruise my heel. its smwhere in the bible lah.. lol anyways, i didn't do it the biblical way. too messy. and i can't imagine smashing the lizard underfoot lah with its goo all over my leg and my bathroom tiles. you imagine for me lah.. so yeah.. gravity is growing stronger nowadays, beware tall people.

nuff said.


p/s : kay lah. the lizzie didn't die. i just kicked it aside. without breaking off any of its parts. and it escaped and live happily ever after.. eating flies and mosquitoes.

Validation

its a cool video. ita just 15 minutes long, but i guess its worth it. watch it if you've time. because you are great.



hope this warms your heart. and know that you... are great, you have an amazing face, did anyone ever tell you that? and someday, people are gonna love you for what you are. =P

encouragement really do wonders.

the art of losing myself

i realize alot of things. i realize the 'so much more' that i've been missing all this while, either because of ignorance or because i want to do everything fast.

so yes. i guess during these few months i've certainly learned alot. in a way its like slowing down. taking a pause to observe the world. i realize that people, are actually quite lonely on the inside. altho they may have lots of company outside (i'm sure you guys have heard this before), but really, when not around people, they're lonely on the inside. even around people you can be lonely, no? you may feel companionship, but it doesn't really satisfy.

i've known some friends, they go watch movies alone. i guess people nowadays would say things like 'sad person' or the stuff like that. i'm also guilty i guess. there was a question i had to answer recently: are you fine being alone?

initially i thought, of course i'm fine. i like being home alone. but let me rephrase the question, are you fine going to the movies alone? are you fine going to shop alone in a huge shopping mall? are you fine having a meal outside just by yourself? etc. well, i'm not. so much for thinking that i like being alone.

something i realized. in as much as there are pros in having company around you, i think there's something we can all learn in being lonely. by lonely i mean - just you, and God. because i believe with all thats going on in this world now, people are all so busy doing their own things, hanging out with frens and all, etc..

that they left God out. Hence i think that God is actually quite lonely lorh. and thats why i feel that a lonely person may find it easier to truly discover God in a way greater than those who aren't. its like, in this aspect of loneliness, the more we give our time to be spent with God (in physical loneliness), that we're actually having a more fulfilling communion than with our many frens. and i guess thats what i really desire more now.

the more i lose myself in this area, the more i want to lose.

you know what? i really don't know how to explain this, but its just something i felt throughout these months. that through the lonely times, i actually feel satisfied.

i'm not good with describing how i feel. and i guess i'm blogging this as a memo for myself.

that was quite a show

i find that everytime i come to this page (editing page), i begin to think whether is it necessary to blog anymore. i'm reminded that the only reason i blogged was because of certain motivations then. and now, as those motivations are gone, i'm beginning to lose interest in blogging. or even maintaining a blog.

you have no idea how many posts i left unwritten. many were started with passion and inspiration, but halfway thru i'll just save it and leave it. they were always left unfinished because i always think they aren't reading-worthy-material. hence, i actually find no need of telling my piece of mind on blogs. cause i want them to mean something more i guess.

the reason i'm blogging right now is because this blog reminds me of the me i was, that made the me now. hence i'm talking to myself now to give a second chance to this blog instead of just do euthanasia. i think thats how you phrase that word. think. i miss my old blog lah.

so yes, i is giving my blog a second chance to hit fame haha. tell the world.

having said that, i think that blogging (to me lah) is for me to understand myself more, but for you to know that i exist lah.

lifesong

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases

His mercies never come to an end

They are new every morning

New every morning.


Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord.

Great is Thy faithfulness

i think i found mine.

see it for yourself

don't have to tell me i neglected my blog. it usually happens when i'm 'addicted' to something new. hence the no time to update excuse.

so yeah. no updates for now thanks to cousin xing. and making me addicted to dominion. again. xD

yay.

What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian

okay. before i start, just want to announce that my update on vietnam will be coming soon. and its gonna be a looong one. and after you finish reading it, you'll be begging your parents to go vietnam with me. ;P

alright. back to the topic. received an e-mail. had a good laugh. so share loh. nah, read:

1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.

edit: i know shebby! xD

2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.

edit: they complain in circles to reach square one. =.=

3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.

4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.

sexist edit: girls lah! most guys don't have this problem wan. =P

5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam
(b) no transport
(c) cannot find parking

6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.

7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to a American / British / Australian.

edit: so darn true!! JAPANESE ACCENT ALSO GOT WTH. better still, thru the phone!! @.@

8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.

9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.

10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.

11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.

12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.

13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?'

14. When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'

15. When an angmoh stranger kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him.


thats all. i've no intention on causing racial tension by posting this up, its all JUST for laughs, and its quite true (some of them). so yeah, hope i don't end up in ISA for stupid reasons like this. did i say stupid? okay. done.




p/s: despite all the shitty comments i hear about m'sia, i'm still proud to be a malaysian! and insya-allah (it means God-willing), i would want to make here, a better place.





=)